Maybe it's not that I need another shot of vodka. Maybe it's that I need to get myself together and figure out what it is that I'm feeling. I've felt this strange emptiness, this numbness for so long that it's eating me alive. Nothing I have tried helps, so perhaps not trying at all will do the trick. So finally I said it, I stopped being a bitch. "Maybe it's not that I need another shot of vodka." But what if my pain is from my withdraw?
