And I just wanted to crash. Get into a car and, and crash it. Crash it at a speed that wouldn't kill me but would put me into a terrifying state. Maybe then people would realize all the things they say and do to me; hurt. I'm slowly killing myself again. You don't even realize. Why don't you realize! Does it take me to be dead or almost there for you to care!? Fuck, truthfully I just feel dead and want to be.
