You're just scared to admit it. That you're a broken machine; damn get the fuck over it! Depression is a chemical imbalance. Quit being so fucking terrified to admit it! I'm depressed too and I know of my chemical imbalance. The chemical imbalance that causes these things. The voice in your head. The inability to perform simple tasks. Feeling numbness, no high or lows. Inability to find meaning or enjoyment in things. Faking how you feel so people think you're okay.
Just so it all takes your life away. But it's only all a chemical imbalance, trust me I know. I know because how could it all be resolved? And remember when you did use to enjoy things, use to actually feel happy? The truth is, depression is a chemical imbalance.
Stop letting your depression get in the way of your life and make you believe that's all you know. That's not all that's left for you.