Guessing Sparkles (WA 2013)

True Love Breaks A Spell

"I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream. I know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam. Yes, I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem. But if I know you, I know what you'll do. You'll love me at once just like you did once upon a dream." — Briar Rose, Sleeping Beauty.

Chapter Twenty-Nine: True Love Breaks A Spell

 Silence filled the air as we rode our way to Guilligan's. Marge chose to keep her mouth shut. And I, did the same too. Just a few hours ago, she told me, what probably was the most shocking story ever, and of course—my mind had a hard time to take it all in at once. But somehow, I wanted to thank her for telling  me the whole truth. At least now, I already had an idea about how my life used to be. Believe it or not, but I was actually happy that I couldn't remember all those horrible things because that would just break my heart even more. But if there was one thing I'd like to remember, that would be the time when I had my real parents with me. Even though I only spent a few minutes with them, I wanted to rewind that moment. I was actually happy that dad gave up his dream in exchange of being with my mother. That only showed how much he loved her back then. Though I must say that I felt sorry for his broken dream. But since I could no longer do something to change it, my heart just made a pact that I'll finish what my dad dreamed when he was still alive. 

 The only thing I couldn't believe that happened in my life would be the time when "I" fell in love with Zach. And I didn't just fall in love with him, I even allegedly accepted his proposal. Which, if you'd ask me, was the next crazy thing aside from the fact that I already lived before. My heart was just very sure that no matter what, I will never love someone as arrogant as Zachary Reynolds. Loving him was like driving a car with no breaks down in a slippery road with closed eyes. It was a suicidal thing! And since I still loved my life, I made it pretty sure that I will never marry him even in the future. But, of course, according to Marge that wasn't how I decided before. As a matter of fact, in a span of three months only—Zachary had successfully won my heart. Yuck. The thought of loving him made my heart crash into million, freaking pieces. I just couldn't imagine myself loving a selfish man who didn't know anything but take care of himself. 

"Mr. Elvis, do you have any idea who kidnapped Miss Josie?" I said, frowning. "I mean, we're not sure if he's not only one. We should bring back-up with us there. You know, just to be sure."

"No, Clarie," he said and shook his head. "That's not how it works. Even though I'm still not sure who the heck took my wife, I know that he's only one. Therefore, we shouldn't be afraid."

And then I kept my mouth shut again and just allowed  my mind to wander off in my own thoughts. I thought about what will be the next thing I'll do after this quest. Will I go back to earth and watch the people I love continue their lives without me? The thought actually made me feel upset. I most certainly couldn't imagine myself watching the people who I used to live with before, continue their lives without me. Perhaps, I still couldn't accept the fact that I passed away already. My mind certainly had no idea with what I should do after all these actions. If there was one thing I was sure of, that would be the fact that I'll finally have my own peace—literally. No more stressful life in NYC. No more parents that acted like posers. And, of course, no more prince charming who I used to love before when I was still alive. To be honest, I could live without those two things—but the third one was the hardest of all. 

As a matter of fact, even though I already passed away, I could still picture myself with Peter someday perhaps in my next life. My heart didn't give up that dream actually. Though, of course, it was already way too impossible to happen now after what happened. There was just something in my heart that wanted me to hold on to that thought and never give up on Peter. That somehow, someday my heart will find him again. Perhaps, we were not meant to be together today. But maybe tomorrow, Peter and I will be forever in a world far from all the harmful people who will try to break our relationship again. Far from all those things that never wanted us to be together. Sure, it sounded quite funny and crazy, but my heart felt that way. And I was sure that it will happen. All I had to do was to wait.