The next few days after Christmas were uneventful. All he did was stay in with his family, play with his siblings, and eat lots and lots of Christmas leftovers. After being stuck inside Ashton decided to check on some of his band's videos so he could respond to the fans.
"Luke I love you"
"Calum you're so hot."
"Michael your an amazing guitarist."
"I love Five Seconds Of Summer"
So far the comments were really great until he read one about him.
"Who the hell is the new guy he's so ugly. He can't even play at all."
"Ashton is so ugly I wish they chose someone else to be their drummer."
After reading those two comments Ashton felt a sudden surge of anxiety. His hands began to tremble, his heart beat was faster, and negative thoughts began to pour in.
Oh my God I was right I'm not talented at all. I don't even know why the boys wanted me in the band. I guess they were just really desperate for a drummer. All those comments were about them being hot and talented, but the only thing people said about me was that I was ugly and sucked at drumming. I suck at everything I knew this was to good to be true. Why am I so stupid? I wish I could just do something right for once. I'm bringing the guys down. All I gotta do is practice more and more and then maybe people will like me. I thought our videos were great, but now I know that they sucked or at least I did. I should punish myself for what I did. I deserve it making people hate me and not being good enough. I'm never good enough, I wish one day I would be but I doubt that that will happen. No matter what I do I'll always be a failure.
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The Happy One (Ashton Irwin)
FanficAshton Irwin is a drummer that recently joined a band called Five Seconds Of Summer. All Ashton ever does is smile and laugh. But he has a dark secret that nobody knows that is killing him inside. Will Ashton ever tell anyone his secret or will he l...
