A Heart That Loves (Blake Griffin Fan-Fic)

Chapter 31.

Blake's POV:

Okay... so it has been almost a week and I haven't heard from Lydia. I have no reason not to think she is dead.. 

I did this to her. From her very first day here i have ruined her, breaking her into small puzzle pieces that i can't connect. Because i am disfiguring all of the edges. I can't do anything right. All i wanted to do was do right by her. 

I get up early and head into practice a couple of hours before everyone else. I get a workout in and then i start shooting free throws. I breathe in and out before each shot. 

After that the team shows up and its time for practice to start so i head to the locker room so i can grab my compression sleeve. I hear DJ on the phone, he is loud. Like he is mad. I listen

DJ on the phone: No listen to me you said only a couple of days, its been a week. You promised you would tell him where you are Lydia. I can't keep hiding this from him. He is by best friend. You don't know what you are doing to him. Yea he made a mistake a while ago. But he did better, he got right by you and asked you to marry him. He loves you and I know you love him. Just please call him. Please. 

I walk through the door as he hangs up. 

Blake: DJ, was that Lydia.

he stare at me.

Blake: (voice raises) Was that Lydia?!

DJ: yes Blake. yes it was Lydia. 

Lydia's POV:

This has been a good week for me. It has been very peaceful and relaxing. I am enjoying myself here. I know i have to face Blake. And it has to be soon. DJ calls me and tells me I need to call Blake, but I can't hear his deep, caring voice. All it will do is sending me back to LA prematurely. And i can't go back until I am ready. I can't go back until I have made up my mind. 

I go out to catch some waves at about 7 am. A good way to start out the day. I have really missed not being able to get up in the morning and just go out. My dad always told me a day without surfing is a day wasted. And i strongly believe that. Malika is about to go to work so I decide to go for a run. 

I am out for about an hour running on the beach, I run past the cove where Blake took me that first week we met. I smiled because he was so corny. He was really sweet thought, and thoughtful, and charismatic. He knew how to sink his teeth in just right so i couldn't go on without him. 

i stop and sit in the sand. I don't know whether to cry or laugh. I think about all the things i have been through in my life. From my dad dying to Blake's drinking problems to me being kidnapped and have cancer to right now sitting in the sand. I have been searching for something my whole life I have been searching for love. That is all i have ever wanted since i could remember, was to be madly, painfully, insatiably in love with a man and for him to mirror my feelings. 

Blake's POV: 

Blake: DJ tell me where she is. now. 

DJ: i promised her that I wouldn't do that. That she would have to tell you. Blake i am caught up in the middle of something that i don't want to be caught up in. I wish i could tell you i really want to, but i can't. 

Blake: For fucks sake DJ!

i lean against the wall and slide to the floor. the back of my head falls against the wall. 

And we just sit there, in silence. I can barely move. I need to find her. If DJ won't help me then i will have to do it alone. 

DJ looks at me and begins to speak. 

Lydia's POV:

Malika is making me go out tonight even though I don't want to. I just want to stay home. We go to club Casanova and it reminds me of the time Blake told that skank Lana to come to the club after i said i wasn't going so i could test him. then the goof leaves the club shit faced drunk and chases me home. well tries to, he gets in a wreck and injures himself but wont let them help him until he talks to be. which i am still mad about that, he should have had immediate medical attention. 

I get dressed and Malika obviously wears something outrageous. We get to the club and it is pretty lit. The bass is bumping and everyone is laughing having fun. I seem to be lacking in that department. I just have lost all joy lately. 

Malika buys us a round a shots and i drink it so fast. It burns going down, but it is a good burn. a much needed burn. I drink until my body goes numb. until my brain goes numb. My heart has been numb. I sit in a booth while Malika gets her freak on over with some guy on the dance floor. I decide i need some fresh air and i go. its pretty chilly tonight for whatever reason so I put on my jacket. I have always hated this jacket the arms were sewn a little too close together making it hard for me to swing it around and put it on. 

Some one helps me put in on from behind. I say thank you but I don't turn around. 

ANON: You always hated that jacket. 

My breathing stops, My limbs turn to jelly almost, The world stops turning, Everything around me seemed to come to an abrupt halt. 

Lydia: Blake? Wha- how did you find me? 

Blake: where else would you have gone when trying to escape me?  You came home. it took me a week  to realize that you came home. 

our bodies come crashing together. I am crying. i think he is crying but i can't tell. We kiss and hug kiss and hug and i just grab his face with my hands. I look into his eyes. Those brown eyes that i have missed looking into. 

Blake: No matter the things that happen to us. No matter the trials and tribulation. I will always come home to you. I will always find you. I was put on this earth to love you. and Damnit Lydia that is what I am going to do. whether you like it or not. I will always love you. Whether you love me or not anymore. I will always love you. 

I just stare at him. What do I say to him? What do I do? 

I stand there wrapped in his strong warm embrace. 

Lydia: Blake I can't just forget that woman. I can't. It was before a time when you were struggling, you aren't anymore which i believe. I believe you love me dearly. and you just showed me by hunting me down. Do you know for sure if the baby is yours? 

Blake: they won't have a better result until he is born, that is the most non invasive way to get the results. 

Lydia: lets go home please. 

Blake: Ok i will get a cab to take us there, it will only be what 30$

Lydia: No Blake, home. 

He smiles and we get in the cab.

Blake: Yes hi sir, can you please take us to the airport. 

I cuddle up against Blake as I embark on this journey to a not so unfamiliar land.