A Heart That Loves (Blake Griffin Fan-Fic)

Chapter 24.

Lydia:

I woke up 1 week ago feeling truly blessed then in seconds my world came crumbling down in front of me..... Am I being punked?

I have my first round of Chemo today. and I am a bit nervous. But i will be okay because Blake will be there. I walk down stairs and put on a pot of coffee, lord knows i need it.. I run back upstairs to wake Blake up. 

Lydia: Baby, wake uuupppppp.

I said it so softly i didnt think that i even heard myself. 

but somehow Blake heard me. 

Blake: Baby, come on get back in bed, we need to have sex... 

Lydia: Blake Austin Griffin. Have you lost your mind? you like four play. Alot of it. Then you also like to take your sweet time with me, you like to have your way, which I dont mind but sex with you takes a while and we have 30 minutes to be at the hospital, so are you going to get up or not? 

idk maybe it was my nerves... 

Blake: Lydia, everything is going to be fine, ill be with you the whole step of the way. 

Blake gets up and gets dressed as quick as i have ever seen him and we drink coffee and head to the hospital. On the ride there, it was very silent. I look at Blake and his eyes are sort of remorseful. As if me gettting cancer was his fault... 

We get there and Blake opens my door and he looks at me. 

Blake: Lydia, i want you to know that i am gut wrentchingly in love with you and there is nothing you can do about it. 

I give him and kiss and we walk inside. The nurses prep me for my IV and they administer the drug. I feel like someone is pushing cocaine through my veins, it burns and it is very uncomfortable.. I tense up and Blake senses it and grabs my hand, I look up at his reassuring eyes and i feel alittle better.. a very small small small amount.. 

When we are done with my 1st Chemotherapy session, I am so tired you would think i havent slept in weeks.... I mean weeks. they wheel me out in a wheelchair and Blake pulls the car around and i get in and we go home. there are paparazzi everywhere, snapping pics asking questions and quite frankly scaring the shit out of me. Blake is yelling and bowing up to ppl to get them away from me. Blake gets me in the car and we leave. he apologizes 80 times telling me i dont deserve this and everything.. but i am just so tired i dont even care.. I almost fell asleep on the 15 min drive. We get home and Blake carries me inside bridal style and lays me in the bed, he lays down facing me and he is just looking at me, carressing my face and shoulder, his touch comforts me so i fall right to sleep..

A week had gone by and i just wasnt myself, i had my second chemo session earlier today and i needed a shower before i rest. I hop in with the little energy i had and begin to bathe.. I grab my shampoo and get to scrubbing. I love washing my hair, when i sleep and my hair falls by my face and i smell my fav shampoo, it comforts me. I am rinsing my hair out then something is tickling my foot i jump bc i thought it was spider but when i look... it was a clump of hair.. my hair. my beautiful, black, long, curly hair is falling out.. 

I collapse to the ground of the shower and i sit there, and  i sit there until i am crying uncontrolably and am unaware of what is pouring on my body: the water from the shower, or my tears.. 

Just then Blake runs in the bathroom he climbs in the shower, clothes and all and he is panicing,

Blake: Lydia?! are you okay? what happened did you fall? 

Lydia: you are gonna be so disgusted by me when i lose all of my hair, I am going to be so ugly that you wont even be able to look at me. 

He looks down at my hand and sees me grasping the clump of hair and i see him tear up a little but then he sucks it back in. 

Blake: Lydia, i will never ever think you arent beautful... So what if you lose your hair.. You will still be the most beautiful girl in the world to me..  

He dries me off and puts me in my pajamas and he lays me on the bed. 

Blake's POV: 

Her hair is falling out. Now this is so real.. Lydia is scared that i wont love her anymore, but what she doesnt know is that i love her more than life itself, there is no way that i couldnt love her.. ever. 

I lay her in the bed and she is facing away from me. i know she is tired and she needs her sleep, i softly touch her back, massaging it, then i run my fingers through her hair, she loves it when i do that it puts her right to sleep. I pull my hand away when i know she is asleep so i can go to sleep, but i pull out yet another chunk of hair, oh god no..

I go and throw it away she doesnt need to know she has more falling out, atleast not tonight anyways, i go back to bed and i cry myself to sleep.

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