Xoxo, Mikey (Petekey, Rikey, Patkey.)

Diary Entry Fifty: This Is It, World. Goodbye.

November 28th, Tuesday
Dear diary,

I think this is the end. I'm going to do it. I've got a noose wrapped around my neck, ready to go. I'm standing on a chair in the garage. Nobody's home. Nobody cares. Sort of like, out of sight, out of mind.

It'll all be over soon. I'm looking outside at the moon... I feel so alone. My hands are shaking wild.

Okay, well, these are my last words. My famous last words. Here it goes...

The hardest part of this is leaving you all, and....

I'm sorry, but this world is just not my place. I've tried so long just to fix this and fit in... I've come to realize that this world's full of sin.

There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space. I don't understand why you all hate me. It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon. You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon... As it shines bright, throughout the night... And remember everyone's facing their own fight. But I can't deal with the pain; I'm not a fighter. You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter.

So let the world know that I died in vein, because the world around me is the one to blame.

And I know in a year you'll forget I'm gone, 'cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on. That's what they used to tell me; all those kids at school. So I'm going by the law majority rules.

My presence on this earth is not needed any longer, and if anything, I hope this makes you stronger.

You're the best friends I have ever had... Such a shame I had to make you so very sad. But just remember that you meant everything to me, and to my heart, you're the only ones that held the key.

Now it's time to go: I'm running out of space to write. And yes, I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight.

I'm watching over you from the clouds above, and sending down the purest and whitest dove... To watch over you, and be my helpful eye.

So this is it, world. Goodbye.

Xoxo, Mikey

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I'm sorry... you should listen to Her Last Words by Courtney Parker, because it fits this. The suicide note is made up of the lyrics, but at one part in the beginning, I changed part of it. This is the new longest chapter. This fic took me two days to write, oh my god. It's still not over. And tbh this chapter was based off of the song....

Xoxo