Hello, My Name Is Cupid (Book I)

Chapter 22 - If Heaven's Grief Brings Hell's Reign (The End)

I walked in the office where Gabriel had been waiting for me already.

As I entered the room Gabriel's light grey wings were hanging on each side of the chair he was sitting on and he pointed with his open hand on the chair in front of the desk.

"Take a seat, brother."

I made my way to the chair and sat down, so my wings were hanging off on the sides as well.
My brother folded his hands and sighed.
The only reason why he ever folds his hands is that he is disappointed and mad.

"I hoped you wouldn't do this. All of us hoped you could return home." Gabriel shook his head "I tried to tell father that this isn't the right way to solve this problem and the first time he listened to me. When you revealed yourself to the humans he was so disappointed in you but I managed to save you once me - but not this time."

It felt like a clump built up in my throat and I didn't know what to reply. My brain was telling me to beg him to talk with father again and to tell Gabriel that it was a mistake, that I wouldn't go it again and that I would regret it but my heart was telling me no. I didn't regret it even though I know it was a mistake and I didn't feel sorry even though I disappointed our father.

The Gabriel continued talking "You know what happens when an angel breaks the rules, when he rebels. You have to fall. I'm sorry."

He got up from his chair and I did so too. We lefts his office and there Raphael and Michael had been waiting for us already.
I could see on their face that they were pitying me and that they were disappointed - just like everyone else.

The archangels were stronger than normal angels like me, that's why it was their duty to make me fall.
They also made Lucifer fall but he tried to fight them. He was an archangel too and he was strong. He nearly managed to escape but just nearly. They caught him and ripped out his wings.

Now it was my time to go.

Michael and Raphael grabbed each of my arm and held it tightly. They wanted to avoid that I would flee but I wouldn't even try. I knew I deserved it and I'd stand up for my mistakes.

Gabriel walked behind me and put his hands on one of my wings. I looked at my brothers, I never saw them this serious. Their faces didn't show any emotions but their eyes were telling more than words could describe. They didn't want to lose another part of their family.

"I'm sorry, brother." Gabriel whispered.

No more words were said and no more glances were exchanged. I silently stood there with my back straight and looked in the distance. There wasn't any sound except my heart beat which you could have heard from miles.

Then the silence was broken by Gabriel. He pulled sharply on my wing and I could feel all the pain shoot through my back.

It wasn't just some ordinary pain like you would have hit an arm on a door it was like someone broke each bone in your body and then teared you apart muscle by muscle. A slow and immense pain which seemed to never go away and while you were suffering the only thing you could do was scream. All I could do was scream. Scream at the top of my lungs.

I was trying to stop; I was trying to be strong; but I couldn't.

My wing was gone and I could slowly feel the ground disappear beneath my feet but I was still holding on to it somehow.

Gabriel's hand wandered to my other wing and again he ripped it out.

I wasn't the only one who got hurt at this moment. I know I was hurting them as well. I know they didn't want to hurt me - especially not like this - and I knew it must be tearing them apart. I was selfish.

I am selfish.

I deserved all this but they didn't. I deserved to suffer.

Suddenly this immense pain was gone and everything that kept me from falling were my brothers - Michael and Raphael were still holding me even though my wings were gone already but then their hands were gone.

I fell through the ground and then everything around me went black.
Heaven wasn't directly above the clouds, it was rather another dimension, and so I first had to cross the "wormhole" between heaven and earth to get there. 

I kept falling and falling which felt like forever but then I saw a light. It was getting closer incredibly fast and everything I could see was a bright, dazzling light. All in sudden I was surrounded by the light for a second but then my eyes adjusted to it and I could see the earth.

It was slowly getting bigger and right underneath me was a huge lake. I wouldn't have died if I hit the ground because, as we were told, god prevents us from dying in case we fall but it's surely more comfortable to hit the water.
I felt my clothes burn off my body while I was falling but I couldn't feel the heat. I couldn't feel anything until the water was surrounding me. It was freezing and the wounds on my back were aching. I manage to climb out of the water and just laid on the ground for a while.

This was the end - the end of my story. This is how I fell.

Now I was human and another angel would do my job from now on. I lost all my powers and my family. Now I would get old and I would have to live a human life.
At this very moment I felt as lonely as I never did before; I felt as hungry as I never felt before and I felt thirsty and hurt. All the feelings that I wasn't able to feel before I fell suddenly entered my body all at one.

But later, during my life as a human, there was something else I felt. Something I never felt before which was warming me up from the inside. I couldn't describe it but I was an amazing feeling.

Love.

I felt much closer to everyone I met so far and I could enjoy some things even more than I did before. I wasn't in love with anyone, but the best is yet to come.