A/N ahoy! so last page was really short sorry about that >w< i was rushed by my mother to get to bed but it's the weekend so i think not :p so hopefully this one will be longer! :)
wish me luck!
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Jamie/Dane's P.O.V
"JAMIE GET UP OUTA BED, IT'S EARLY MORNING MEETING TODAY!"
oh sh*t, i forgot about that.... Rolling out of bed I quickly raced to the bathroom to shower as fast as i could. taking a glance at the mirror before i steped into the shower , i see the sight of something i hate seeing... Me. I hated my body so much... I hate the curves, hate the boobs, hate the hips. Looking away fast i step into the shower and begin my day.
My outfit for the day was simple, sports bra to flaten my chest a bit, black skinnies although on me they weren't that skinny, and a plain white shirt with a old pair of red high tops, checking myself out in my full body mirror in my room i decide to but on some bracelets, the ones i liked the most were from my old friends, the bracelets read, "strong" , "stay positive", and 2 threaded bracelets with beads.
"come on Jamie we gotta go! brush your teeth and grab your back pack!"
"yea yea yea mom, i got it..." rolling my eyes as it's only 7:50 am and she needs to be there for 8:10.... i sometimes really hate the school for setting up that bloody morning meeting on wednsdays. After rushing to the bathroom to brush my teeth, I grab my back pack and race to the car and wait for my mom to lock up the house.
"so you gonna have a good day?" my mom asked as she opened the drivers door, honestly she knows what i'm going to say so why bother asking?
"well you know, I go, I do, and then I come home, I don't know why you keep asking me that, you know what i will say..." i really hate it when she tries to act like i actually enjoy going to school where i have like no friends, like sure theres those few people i talk to but there just in my class that's it, that's the only time i talk to them.
"just hoping for a new answer" she says as she starts the car, after that the drive to school was silent, thankfully it wasn't a long drive, just about 15 minutes so it was 8:05 when we got there.
"well have a good day! see ya after school!" my mom yelled as I raced to the school doors, god I just can't deal with her today well at least not right now I'm hungery and tired right now, plus she is far to happy for me. quickly droping off my stuff at my locker I walk down the empty halls to the breakfastclub room, walking in I notice it was just me and another kid, so it wasn't gonna be to awkward, I always hate it when there are lots of kids here cause they all kinda stare as you grab your food... creepers. Today I grab some toast and a chocolate milk, taking my ipod out I put on my fav song from Skylar Grey, coming home part 2, it was a great song but to others, they would call it a sad song, maybe it is but it always calmed me and would make me think of the ocean and all the huge sea creates with in it.
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After my fist two blocks it was now lunch time and thank god for that, I was starving! Speed walking to my locker, I quickly put my books away and grab my ipod and five dollars for lunch. Walking to the canteen wasn't so bad today, seeing as i had gotten my chocolate milk and apple with in 2 minutes and was out the door to the old oak tree in our school's front yard in 5 minutes. It was nice out as always, it hardly ever rained here but when it did, it was great, the cool rain on your skin, it was always warm here from sping to fall, just about always sunshine and no clouds, it was winter that held all that cold weather for us.Pulling out my ipod I put on a pitch perfect song, i enjoyed their music , it's cool how they only use their voices, and the music they picked to sing is great really. But if I ever let anyone at my school hear what I listen to.... dear god I'd be even more of a loser then I already am now. Plus I already have problems with most of the girls here.. Hearing the warning bell from the school, I rush to the doors and straight to my next class, drama, ah one of my fav classes.
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There was all of 30 mins left of class and today we didn't do much, just going over our plays we were doing for our class project, although mine is really easy cause I'm doing mine alone and will be singing in mine, so i don't really need to do much just get a good outfit and call it my costume and look as if I'm going over everything. As always I was in the far corner of the room doing my thing, untill i felt a small kick to my foot, looking up I see the three girlest girls of my class and most likely third of my school all looking down on me with their arms crossed like I was a puppy that pissed on the floor.
looking up at them feeling a bit annoyed at it all,I ask the only thing I could ask.
"what?" I say as I stood up to be eye level... well some what eye level, their high heels making them about a few inchs taller
"what are you even trying to do?" I believe the "leader" named Dawn snarled, while gesturing to what I was wearing
"yea, what are you trying to pull?" the girl beside her asked, following her lead, I think I have her in one of my other classes... not sure what one but what do I care
"umm...wearing clothes?" trust me I know I'm being a smartass but come on it is kinda fun to pull on their strings once in a while.
"yea smartass I get that," Dawn snaps at me
"she means why are you wearing a outfit you'd see on a guy..." the quieter girl saying in a harsh wishper, while making sure no one else heard.
"..well I wouldn't really all it a guys outfit.. like sure the shirt is a guys small but the jeans are womens size 3 skinnies..." looking down at what I was wearing, I honestly couldn't see what they were talking about I thought it was a good outfit.
"well hello! your hair is cut REALLY REALLY short and from the back you look like a bloody guy, like what the hell!? are you trying to be a guy? ewww that thought is so gross" Dawn now scrunching up her noise at the thought
"who said I wanna be a guy? this is just how I dress, and hello it's called "new haircut" for a reason Dawn, and why the hell should you care?" this was just down right stupid, how could they think that? I didn't want to be a guy...that was wrong, no matter what I was born a girl, and that's what I am right..
"I'm just warning you, people are starting to think other wise and guess what people don't like it, and trust me I couldn't care but your mom wanted someone to talk to you about it and so she payed me to, so since i have done what I was paid to do, i'm off" with that and a flick of her hand her and her squad was off to the other side of the room. I can't believe my mom payed her to talk to me...it's so nice to know you can talk to me so openly... not! plugging myself into my music I tune out and leave class with out the teacher noticing. God do I hate my life sometimes, wallking to my locker I quickly grab my backpack and homework from my classes, seeing as I only had gym left I decided to skip and just go to my hiding place for when I skip a class. walking fast out of the building, I wait for my cab to show up and drive me to the huge park our town had.
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stepping out of the cab I quickly handed over fifteen dollars to the driver and walked into the park's gates, it was a lovely park really, cherry blossom trees and old oak trees, some weeping willows too, but if you walked far enough into the park and off the pathways there was a nice quiet place to hide out in, it was deep in the forest and it over looked a small but fair sized lake and I usually sat up on the ledge on the cliffs, they weren't to high up and most pople who knew about this place would come swimming here and use the cliffs to jump into the lake, and in which was what I was gonna do once I got my homework done and out of the way.
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FtM Transgender???
Teenfikceschool is tough, and so can your home, and it's even tougher when your school hates anything that isn't straight, so being transgender is tough to be proud of when everyone is trying to "fix" you or are hating on you like there's no tomorrow
