Hey There Delilah (Sequel to Not The Same)

Love and Heartbreak

 >Thursday Night<

I hadn't talked to Roman since our argument, in fact I had only seen him maybe twice sitting in on rehearsals. Declan and I were pretty much dating. We hung out every second that we weren't practicing which actually wasn't a lot.

Tonight was the first night of the live shows and backstage was the most hectic thing I've ever seen in my entire life. I sat in a makeup chair in the  hair and makeup room, on twitter, as people frantically ran around me.

@Delilah_Not_The_Song:  First night of live shows!! Excited and terrified at the same time! :-) who'll be watching?

I scrolled through the other contestants tweets about tonight and all the good lucks I was getting from my... Fans? That's so weird to say. Denise, my makeup artist, applied more powder on my face as she laughed at something Shannon, the girl doing Matt's makeup said. Matt was in Your Prince with Declan and he was pretty cool. He was one of the most outgoing people I'd ever met. And yes, even the guys wear makeup.

"Hey, Delilah." I looked up at Matt who was pointing to something behind me. I turned to see Declan, completely dressed for tonight in his black pants, black t-shirt, and grey vest, walking towards me with roses.

"Oh my god.." I heard myself say as I stood up and met him halfway. "Are these for me?"

"No, they're for Matt.." He said sarcastically. I laughed and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"They're gorgeous." I stared down at the red flowers now in my arms.

"AWWWW!" I heard a chorus of voices behind me. Declan laughed. I turned around to face half of the contestants and makeup artists along with the X Factor social media correspondent, Lucy. Who was already telling us to get close together for a picture. Declan gladly obligied. I tried to force a smile as I turned into him and smiled at Lucy's phone. But this really worried me. Pictures of Declan and I had been circulating so obviously directioners think we're dating. What will they think once these pictures were posted? More importantly, what would they do? 

After the picture was taken, Lucy turned to her phone to upload it, making me shake more than I already was. People swarmed into the room to do last minute touches, I still needed to get dressed. Quickly, I gave Declan a kiss on the cheek and excused myself with my flowers to the dressing room. As I closed the door behind me and headed down the hallway, a figure turned the corner. Both of us stopped right where we were. I looked around me, only to realize we were the only people in the hall. Cautiously, we both continued walking.

"So, I'm guessing Declan got you those." Roman said.

"Yeah." He nodded his head, now we were right in front of each other, my head down, I walked around him, but then felt his hand grab my shoulder.

"Delilah?" I didn't turn back. "You look beautiful." My heart skipped a beat. Finally, I decided to face him and speak my fears out loud, even if he wouldn't understand yet.

"I just want you to know, that I thought of a song the second you told me to sing one to someone, and my song choice has changed since then. Maybe it's about you, and maybe it's about Declan. Either way I'm scared. I don't want anyone to get hurt." I blurted, truthfully. To me, it doesn't matter if he's moved on and could care less, he needed to know.

"I don't know what your song is. No one's told me. But I just want you to know, I'm praying it's about me. And don't worry about me and Declan, we can take it. I'm more worried about you getting hurt."

His eyebrows were scrunched up like he was trying to make sense of what I was saying or he was trying to read me. Singing in front of millions was terrifiying. Every contestant here was terrified out of their minds, and I knew that. But I had more on my plate. If I lost tonight, not only would I loose almost everything, even if I make it tonight, I'm going to be breaking a guy, who I really care about's, heart. I watched Roman disappear down the hallway.