I became close with some of them, they'd invite me to their house and make me talk and laugh more. It actually felt great, because I hardly ever laughed. I remember the times that I thought myself laughing they'd look at me with surprise and say that I'm barely smiling.
.. Well that was my laugh back at that time. I wore that sad face for years, therefore it was hard to laugh exactly the way they did.
I used to get back home and practice laughing in front of the mirror but with no success..
Now that it was the final year of high school, everyone was stressed, except me, I never shown any kind of stress and I don't know why.
That group of friends that I had, I'd always heard them speaking behind my back, and of how irritating I was, and how they don't want to see much of me anymore. So, I'd show up after they finish talking and they smile at me and greet me like any other day and I greet them the same.
I felt sad, but never told them that I have had heard most of their conversations about me. I'd keep it inside and paste a smile..
When the exam was a month away, one day I was sitting with them and suddenly they asked to make a plan so we could all succeed, leave that school and start college life which seemed so exciting.
The plan was that each of us will master a subject and the day of the exam we'd help each other ( it was cheating perhaps ). Of course they'd assigned me English. And because I was naive and stupid I had believed them, trusted their words and done what they had said.
We had 5 subjects in the bac exam, which were; Phisics, English, Maths, Philosophy and Science. We'd pass two subjects a day and one on the third day..
I was naive enough not to revise for anything but English as they ordered. But since I loved Arabic, I was good at philosophy as well as English.. the first day of the big test had arrived, we had phisics in the morning, English in the afternoon.
We were sitting next each other. An hour had passed of the exam and I was still waiting for them to give me answers as they said, of course none of them did. And just like that, time had ended and I handed in an almost empty paper. I said nothing about it, and just waited for the English test.
It had started and I knew all the answers and started writing them confidently. They waited until i finished and asked for all my answers and I gave them what they wanted without saying a word..
The same happened the day after it, they gave me none in the maths test and I gave them all what I wrote in Philosophy.. and just like that they took my hard work away and succeeded. Or I shall say that because of my naivity I got them to succeed and got myself to fail!
