Unbroken • Poetry

XI

So I'm alone now, uninhibited
It's autumn as I watch the leaves fall
Green to red to brown to dust
Like the life I was living, it slowly sours
Over a time unnoticeable to all but hindsight
Building pressures, one by one
Until I look back and suddenly it's a mountain of pain
Invisible to all but myself, alone
As I increasingly relinquish the company of others
In preference to my own bittersweet misery
Indeed, alone and lonely are different words
With different meanings, and would differ entirely
If it were not for the solitude that unites the two concepts
Like an indivisible bond made of sadness and agony
And I look back at the reasons, muse quietly
For what is the use of volume when there is nobody to hear it?
I sit back on my knees and draw myself small
My back securely fitted against the blank of the wall
As choke back tears, I wonder
If this is the reason I am crying at all.

Autumn 2015

hahahaahahahahahaaaa emo
(I don't take myself too seriously but this is a little cringe)