Friendzoned

16.

Madison's pov:

Sleeping in a plane is not comfortable at all.I thought it was going to be but it wasn't and I woke up with a hurting back.I looked out of the window and saw Heathrow airport from above.We were almost there,back in cloudy London.I was so ready to get back at Holmes Chapel with my dad and hang out with Gemma and her mum.I mean,life there was so peaceful.

We landed after ten minutes or so and got our bags.Gemma invited me for a coffee at home but I wanted to relax first alone.I said my goodbyes for now with everyone and took a cab to Chesire hoping to spend some quality time with my dad.I wanted just to relax.These two months have been totally crazy.Grayson,our relationship,my friendship with Liam that got ruined...It's all overwhelming.

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When I got home and talked to my dad,spend time with him and talked about everything,it was late,1am so I decided to go to bed.I had already unpacked everything and I wore my pajamas.England was still chilly even tho Summer had started.Something's wrong with this country and its weather seriously

I checked my phone one more time and then drifted to sleep...

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"Madison I have to talk to you about something" Dad said
"Yeah tell me but quick because I have to do my homework.Thank god it's Friday tommorow and I can finally go out with Gemma and Harry" I said excited about the following day
"Honey please,please sit down first" He said nervous and with sadness in his eyes.
"Dad are you okay?You're acting so weird and you seem so sad all day.Is there something wrong that you don't wanna tell me?" I asked curious.

"I have some news that are not good" he said
"Okay.." I said
"Honey..You're grown up now and I won't hide anything from you anymore.So this morning while you were at school,mum was having a problem.She was feeling sick.She was dizzy,nausious and she threw up.But she spit blood so I got panicked and qe went to the hospital.Mum had an illness but the doctors didn't know what it was.They said she had it for a year now and they think mum knew it and she hid it from us.S-she went on surgery,but she couldn't make it.Madison...mum passed away" Dad said and tears were now filling his eyes.

"You've got to be kidding me.It's just a joke right?To test me and see if I'm gonna be sad and act crazy.Isn't it?Where is mum hiding?Tell me,where is she?!It's just a joke!Dad talk to me!" I panickes.This couldn't be true.It couldn't.
"Honey please calm down.I get it's hard for you and me but she wasn't okay.God wanted to let her live and mot being in pain anymore" he said.I felty whole world crushing into millions of pieces.Everything was just fine and then it blew up.

"Wh-what?So it's true?D-does Harry know?Does Gemma know?Miss Anne?What is happening?Dad what's going on?Mum didn't die,she can't die!She can't leave me too!" I broke down in tears,feeling my body sore and falling to the ground.My dad helped me get up.He carried me to my bed and helped me calm down.
"You-you're not leaving me dad right?You're staying with me?Please dad tell me you are" I begged
"Of course.Always" he said

The next week was the funeral.I woke up in the morning and dad left me a note that he was in church to get everything ready and that Harry would come pick me up.I couldn't deal with reality anymore,with so many deaths,endless hate about my body image and how I look.About who I am and who I hang out with.Even death threats from those who I used to he the closest with and now we're just strangers...

I wanted to out an end in all of this,I had to put an end and stop the pain,because it was the pain that killed you inside and made you emotionless.The devil inside your head,telling you to give up.Depression was tiring.I didn't know what to do.My devil didn't stop tellinge to hurt myself more.But he told me that day,that morning before the funeral,that if I hurt myself one more time everything will end and I'll be happy again.