Friendzoned

36.

Madison's pov:

----4 months after----

Should I knock?what if he's not alone?But now I'm here,I can't go anywhere.I have to.
I took a deep breath and pussed the doorbell button,waiting,nervous for his reaction when he sees me.A few moments later,the door opened and I saw his tall figure with the strong features.
"Hey" I waved
"Madison?!What are you doing here?" He put me in a big hug.
"I dropped by to say hi" I said
"Aren't you supposed to be in college right now?" He asked me and let me go from the hug.He pursed his lips and furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and suspicion.
"Well no.Maybe" I tried to cover it up.

"Madison?What did you do?" He asked and crossed his hands in front of his chest.
"I kind of dropped out of college,two days before my graduation" I hesitated to confess
"You did what?!" He said.
"Can I come in?And we'll talk about it" I told him
"Yeah" He let me in and we sat in the living room.
"A cuppa tea?Coffee?Water?" He asked
"Coffee would be good" I said
"Be right back" He said and went ro the kitchen.I took my phone out of my purse and I had one new message.
Grayson: Tell me you didn't actually go to England like that.I thought you were joking about it
Madison: I wasn't lol
I know he wouldn't reply because he would be sleeping at this time in LA.

"Here's your coffee" He said and sat down next to me,putting his tea on the coffee table.
"Thanks" I took a sip from it.
"So..are you serious?" He asked
"Yes and you have every right to say something negative about it" I replied
"What were you thinking?" He asked
"I missed you guys" I said as an excuse
"That's not even a decent reason.And if it is,couldn't you wait two bloody days?" He asked
"But Harry come on isn't it enough for you to believe?" I asked him.
"No,you know I'm not dumb" He said
"You are lame" I said
"Now can you tell me what really got you to drop out?" He asked
"Well I got anxious and started thinking of every way possible of failing.Like what am I going to do after I graduate?Am I that good to get an actual job?" I said

"You've got to be kidding me.This thing is going to crush you if you get so nervous" He said
"I know but I'm working on it.I'm so upset about it and to talk about it even with you" I said
"Hm?whay do you mean?" He asked
"I was on a program with a phyciatrist.Not a rehab.Just a doctor.You are the first to know" I admitted,playing with my fingers and looking at the ground.
"A doctor?for what?" He asked and looked at me
"For my..for..for my self harming issues" I said and my heart started beating faster than normal.
"You still kept doing it?After all the times we talked?" He asked me.

"You know how it is.It just keeps crushing me and becomes and addiction.But I'm clean now.For over a month.I started right after I came to visit for Easter" I said
"Madison that's a big step for you.A huge step" He said
"I know.I mean.I'm feeling quite better" I said
"You're a strong fighter aren't you?I know you were strong" He said and put his hand on my back,assuring me his words were right.I was fighting for me and for my health.
"Yeah" A little smile formed at the corner of my lips.
"That's you there.The real you.The sunshine I always knew" He pinched my cheeks and I giggled.

"So lets move on from that.How are things with you?The break?The boys?Do you keep contact?" I asked
"Of course.We go out and meet every day.You know we can't do withouth each other's company for more than two days" He said and I smiled
"That's good" I said
"Did you have any classes today?" He asked me
"No.Only the graduation on Friday" I said
"We're going.Together" He said
"What?why?" I asked
"Because you have to graduate.It's what you always loved to do.One of the things that make you smile and bring out the best of you" He said
"You are right but I still don't know" I said thinking about it
"Okay look.We have around 30 hours.The flight is around 6 hours if we go with our private jet.If we leave tommorow morning we will be there in the afternoon and will have time to sleep till the next morning which is your graduation" Harry said