Friendzoned

23.

Madison's pov:

In Liam's arms on my dad's funeral,sobbing and having Liam to whisper in my ear that everything is going to be alright.I was an emotional wreck.But I had all of my loved ones by my side.Liam,Harry,Louis,Niall,Eleanor,Gemma.We were all always by each other's side,no matter what.At least I had them and right now,at this very moment,I couldn't ask for anything more than that.Just them.And I would be alright.Still broken but in a process of healing slowly.

"Everything is fine.We'll be alright.There's nothing to worry about.I'm here for you I'll never let you go.Cry as much as you want.Let it all out.Let it all go.Remember that good days are going to come.Hope baby.You'll be with me.Let it all go.Shhh" Liam was whispering in my ear all the time the funeral lasted because I was crying.I was so thankful to have him and everyone by my side.
As the funeral came to an end,I left the flowers on my dad's grave and a hand was on my shoulder.
"Madison" It was a female voice that reminded me of someone.But I didn't know who it was.I turn my head only to see a face I haven't seen in five whole years.Grown now,around the age of 24.

"Christina?" I said
"Hey" She said and hugged me
"What are you doing here?" I askes
"Harry found my phone and called me.He told me about dad" She said
"Oh.So you didn't bother to find out how we are on your own?" I asked
"Chill out,I came to say I'm sorry.I didn't expect dad to pass away so early" She said
"You're not even sad about it aren't you?" I asked laughing
"I am sad.But I've learned to not care anymore for those who don't care about me" She said
"Are you fucking kidding me?Dad and I were looking for you for two wholw years but you dissapeared.We thought you were dead for a moment!" I said

"Well haven't heard about that.I don't seem welcome here" She said
"You always were.You just left on your own decision.No one told you to run away" I said
"I'm sorry okay?I just don't feel you like family anymore" She said and took my wrist
"Ouch fuck leave my hand" I said and got away
"What about it?Did it hurt?" She said and raised my sleeve
"Leave it" I said
"You're just the same old freak you used to be right?Cutting like a maniac with that blade of yours.That's why you're not my family!" She said
"Hey hey hey what's going on here?Who is she?" Liam came up to me
"Christina,Madison's sister,nice to meet you?Who are you?" She said and smiles gently.What a slut.

"The one that left?" Liam said
"Yeah.I don't wanna brag about it" she said
"So you didn't tell me.What do you do for a living?Being a whore or a slut maybe?Same old with you too huh?Like you used to do when you were 18" I said and folded my arms in front of my chest.
"Oh don't be such a brat.I shouldn't have came here anyway.I only came here to see if you havw changed for hopefully not the freak you used to be" She said
"Oh thank you so much" I said and rolled my eyes
"Have fun suicidal sis" She said and walkes away
"I don't wanna be rude but what the hell is wrong with her?" Liam asked

"I honestly don't have a clue.I never expected to see her again" I said
"We have some things to discuss,you know" He said
"I know" I said
"Should we dicuss this back at the house?" He asked
"I don't know.I don't wanna go in there ever again" I said
"Wanna go for a walk?" He asked
"Sure" I said.Liam took my hand and we started walking at a little path with beautiful trees and flowers.
"So.." Liam said
"So" I took a deep breath
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked
"I have to be honest" I said
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" He said

"I have to tell you.Can we just sit somewhere?" I asked
"Yeah" he said and we found a bench to sit on
"I've already told you that I was struggling with depression..but not what the effects were.When my mum died,I was even worse.Those voices in my head kept saying that there's a way out.That they will make me feel better and I'll be happy again.So I did it.And Harry found me in the bathroom when I was ready to faint from the blood loss.It was the day of my mum's funeral and I remember that Harry never left my side that day.That was our little secret.We always kept it.But my sister apparently somehow saw me one day,that's how she knows." I took a breath and continued