Friendzoned

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Madison's pov:

I was finally going to do it.I was finally going to let people know who I am and know abouy my life.Was I ready?Not really.But it was time I did because things were going down hill since day one of this tour.

"@MadisonAzoff : Filming a 'Draw My Life' video.This is going to be so hard.Wish me luck" I tweeted.

I wasn't wrong.I knew it was going to be tough for me to say everything I needed to say,but I would do it.

I placed my camera in front of the white board and took the marker in my hand.I pressed the button to start recording and that was it.

"Hello everyone and welcome to this week's video.This week as you see and know I'm doing a draw my life.So lets get started" I narrated as I sketched my life.

"In 1st April 1994 I,Madison Olivia Azoff was born in Chesire,England.My life as a person had just began.As a baby,I was a really loud one and I always run around the house.I remember my mum and my dad telling me stories about how much of a mess I made the kitchen when I was eating" I said remembering all the happy memories.

"In my childhood,I had two friends that I knew since forever.Harry and Gemma Styles.I feel blessed to know these people and their family as they helped me through so much.As a child I was still loud and weird.Being in the same class as Harry and having to see him as a child was a torture.His puns were worse than they are now.Even though he had other friends too,he was mostly with me and always made me feel better" I continued.

"It all seemed well but it wasn't that.From the age of 7 I remember being bullied for my weight as people called me names.At first,I ignored them and I didn't care about what any of them said.But as I got older and older it bothered me a lot.Before I knew it,my anxiety for school and bullying led me to depression in the age of 15 years old.But it was just the beginning of a really dark time of my life,which left me with scars and wounds I regret" The hardest part was getting started.

"When I was 16,my mum died.I remember that day my dad told me.I was just back home from a tiring day at school and he announced it to me.It was all like a mess.It all felt incomplete.A new part of depression took me over.The worst day of my life,was my mum's funeral.I was in a state of shock only minutes before Harry came by to pick me up,with my wrists full of blood.Self-harm was something that always bothered me after that day.I can't lie it still does and it's awful.But as I get older,I understand my mistakes and I'm making effort to fix everything that ks broken" I said.

"Harry was my rock.The only person that knows me like an open book is him and I'm grateful for all the help he has given me.He was and still is my best friend.A couple of months later,he convinced me to go to his audition on the X Factor.I went to boot camp also,where another chapter of my life began" I added.

"I remember this day precisely.Harry was waiting for his name to be called for his other audition in boot camp but I was really thirsty and left him for a moment to go get some water.On my way to the cantine they had,I bumped into a boy.A seventeen year old boy,with nice smelling hair and an innocent look into his face.God it was awkward.When I looked into his eyes for the first time I was speechless.They made me have a tingling feeling in my heart and stomach.We excused each other for basically falling on each other and it was just that.I didn't know who he was but I knew he already had a big impact on me" I said.

"When Harry told me he was put in a band I was so happy for him.He told me he was meeting with these four other guys tomorrow night for a bonfire night,in his house.When the other night the four guys came,one of them was that one boy.That boy that made me feel weird.It had to be him.That's when we properly met.His name was Liam,Liam Payne.He caught my attention from the beginning and boy doesn't he now" I continued.