Friendzoned

31.

Madison's pov:

I couldn't sleep at all on the plane.There was only 1 hour left for me to reach my destination but I was getting no sleep,even if I was tired.My thoughts of tonight had occured my mind and didn't let me relax,not even a bit.I never liked goodbyes.Whenever the boys left for tour,we were saying goodbye and I began feeling empty.In this point,O honestly believe I'm starting to act like my 16 despressed self.There hasn't been a night were I would not think about every possible bad situation for my future.I knew deep inside that I was going to ruin myself.

"@MadisonAzoff : I can't sleep.I hate saying goodbye fml.Does anyone want to talk?" I tweeted.Minuted later I saw a familiar reply in my tweet notifications.
"@Harry_Styles : I do :)))" Harry tweeted me.Oh Harry,you're always here for me.Why am I leaving you too?
Harry: Everything okay? He texted me
Madison: Somehow ok
Harry: Tell me what is it
Madison: Are you still at the wedding?
Harry: No it ended minutes after we got back there.We're on the plane to Dallas for the Jingleball
Madison: Same country but miles away.I'm glad
Harry: How was last night for you?

Madison: Awful
Harry: Why?
Madison: I miss you already and I want to come back
Harry: How many hours away are you from LA?
Madison: 1
Harry: Well after Jingleball I might come there for a while and show you my favourite places in LA
Madison: I first have to get my things to my apartment
Harry: Have you found one?
Madison: Kind of.I'm staying with Ethan and Grayson
Harry: Hmm does Liam know?
Madison: No I haven't told him.It's not like we're going to date again.We're still just friends
Harry: You keep friendzoning everyone don't you?Liam all the time and again now,Grayson,that guy Blake in junior high school.

Madison: Liam and I's break up was a mutual decision.I didn't friendzone him
Harry: But you said 'we're still besties' when we were driving and because I was sitting next to him,I saw how he began to tense up a little bit.He doesn't like it Madison
Madison: What do you mean?
Harry: I mean,he knows how you want this and he knows how he wants this.He wanted to combine both but terribly screwed up because he wants YOU to be happy more than himself
Madison: He can always just tell me what he wants.I'm not that kind of person that wants everything like I want them to be
Harry: Now it's done.You can't change it.You just have to wait
Madison: Exactly.I want to pee
Harry: Go pee

I stood up to go to the airplane's bathroom but I fell back to my chair.My whole body was hurting from head to toe and I felt unable to move. I tried to stand up again and I held every seat to get to the bathroom.
I did what I had to do and washed my face and my hands.I looked myself in the mirror and I looked so tired.Dark circles were under my eyes and I looked really pale from the lack of food and water.I haven't eaten since the wedding,before even Zayn was there.I was a mess.I knew why I was hurting everywhere and especially at my legs and my back.I started remembering every detail from last night and opened my plaid shirt.I had closed the buttons when I wore it because it was a bit chilly but I woukd just wear my crop too when I got to LA.

The first thing I saw were love bites in my tummy where my crop top ends and I was lucky I was wearing another shirt on top.I took my too off and saw three more love bites.One on my neck,which my hair were covering and two on my chest.I wore my too and my shirt back on,closing it with the buttons.I took my makeup out of my bag and tried to cover the hickey on my neck as best as I could.
I took a deep breath and got out of the bathroom,walking back go my seat.

When I got off the plane,I got my three suitcases from the luggage department and walked to the exit.
Ethan: We're outsideee
Madison: I just got off,I'm coming
I looked around and saw the familiar twins I haven't seen in months now.
I gave them a toothy smile and walked up to them.
"Hellooo" I said
"Hiii.Leave your bags and come in for a hug already" Ethan said and we hugged tight.This guy.
"Hey Maddy" Grayson smiled and we had the most awkward hug we could ever hug.