Addy's Lullaby

Addy's Lullaby Chapter 23

It was the next morning that I woke up next to Justin, cuddling him, his arms wrapped around my revealing body. I checked to see if the covers were over us and thankfully they were. I looked up at him and smiled softly when I noticed he was already looking and smiling at me. I don't know what to say. It's like I felt a bond between us. I felt like there was a strong feeling for us to be together. I hated to say it and wouldn't admit it to him or anyone else but I loved him. I loved him so much to the point where I would do anything for him. He felt like my soulmate. He sat up, put on some boxers and basketball shorts and walked to the bathroom and got in the shower. I put a robe on around myself, and walked down to the kitchen. Still, Justin and I were the only ones here. I started making bacon and eggs. I felt Justin's arms wrap around my waist and hug me from behind, "Good morning beautiful, last night was great." I smiled and nodded, "Yeah it was, orange or apple juice?" He smiled, "Orange please." I grabbed the orange juice and poured him a glass, setting it in front of him on the table, "There you go, need anything else?" He looked at me, "No thank you." I got him his plate of food and got mine and sat next to him. "This is great!" He said softly, "I love you." I smiled and went back to eating. He gave me a funny look and said it again, "I love you." This time he was more serious. "I heard." I said. He kept looking at me funny, "Huh, just thought you'd say it back..." I stopped in mid-bite and set my fork back down before the food could even touch my lips, "After you cheated on me?" I said rather sternly. He looked at me, "Look I'm sorry okay? I told you I don't know why I did it." I scoffed, "How could someone cheat and not know why they are doing it. That's plain stupid." "Why would you have sex with me then if you were secretly still mad at me?" His voice got a little louder. "I dunno maybe cause at first I was kinda pushed into it? Maybe cause I kinda didn't have a choice?" "Not my fault." Huh impossible, "Not your fault huh? How could it possibly not be your fault, you being the pusher?" "YOU WANTED IT!" "NOT AT FIRST YOU ASSHOLE AND IF YOU THINK YOU CAN RAISE YOUR VOICE TO ME GO AHEAD BUT YOU GOT ANOTHER THING COMING!" I slammed down my fork and got up walking into the room and locking the door. God he is such an asshole. How could I fucking forgive him for doing something like that. I sat on the bed and looked down, how come I was so sure that I still loved him? Why couldn't I accept that he was a cheating prick. Oh that's right, v-card ring a bell?