Addy's Lullaby

Addy's Lullaby Chapter 30

I woke up and I saw Ashton wandering around the room I was in. I looked around more but it was still blurry from passing out. I blinked my eyes a few times and I still couldn't see. Finally after a few minutes I could look around again and I saw Ashton getting something ready. However my hands weren't tied. I got up and looked at him almost falling over, still woozy from the cloth. I grabbed the railing and muttered softly, "W-what is that...?" He smiled, "You're my new project." I rolled my eyes, "Where's Justin?" He looked at me, "What is your fascination with 'Justin'?" He said Justin with emphasis as if he was jealous. I smiled softly, "You okay there?" He growled and looked at me sternly, "I'm fine, Justin will be staying in here to watch you." I was wanting to stab him with that letter opener he had right then and there, but I had to do it at the right time. Today, wasn't it. I wasn't feeling too good. I watched him for about another half hour before he walked out without a word. I walked over to the chair and sat in it. A few minutes later, Justin walked in and looked at me, "We need to talk." I looked at him, "You're telling me!" I got up and tried to swing at him but he grabbed my fist and shook his head. I growled and yanked my hand out of his. I looked at his arms and they seemed cut up. But not like in a fight... Like he had hurt himself. I made a mental note to ask him about that. I walked up to him, "What's up with you? Realize that you shouldn't have helped Ashton and kept loyal to me considering I didn't do shit to you?" He rolled his eyes, "What are you talking about?" "You should keep your sleeves rolled down unless you want people to see those." He looked at his arms quickly and rolled down his sleeves, "Honey, I've already seen them. You can't hide them now." He looked at me, "Those are nothing.." "Bull." I looked at him and smiled, "You can't hide shit from me. Especially those. I know those probably more than you do." He looked down, "I need to talk to you about something." I rolled my eyes, "Not until you tell me what those are from." He kept looking down, "I cut. There, happy?" I shook my head, "Now shoot." "It wasn't my idea to 'go against you.' I'm sorry, he just said he was going to kill my mom if I didn't help him." I rolled my eyes, "Whatever, I don't care anymore. Now I just know I can't trust ever again." "It wasn't my fault-" I cut him off, "Really..? You really think Ashton is gonna kill your mom? Really." He looked at me, "I don't know what he could or would do!" I was about to say something but he kissed me to 'shut me up'. I pushed him off, "What are you doing!?" "C'mon Addy, admit you still love me. I mean hell you gave me your virginity! Doesn't that create some bond thing?!" I looked down and shook my head, tears filling my eyes. I wanted to hate him. I wanted to punch him in his face and run away, but something inside kept saying no. I mean, he was right... I still loved him and no matter how much I denied it, it was still true... I still loved Justin and it burned hot fire up my chest to say it but at the same time, I was calm. I wanted to scream and open a vein myself but I couldn't. I looked at him, still working on if I should trust him again or not, "I dunno... What's gonna happen to my sister and brother? How do I know I can for sure trust you again? Justin... How..?" He looked at me, "Forgive and Forget..." Forgive and Forget? I thought. Maybe...