The Princess And The Dragon

Chapter 23: What am I becoming?

~ A special chapter that only focuses on Natsu's thoughts(1st person p.o.v) ~

The room was spinning, as was my mind. I couldn't collect much of my thoughts. All I had was this burning desire in my chest, my soul.
What is wrong with me?
I want to bang my head against a wall, what are these primary instincts I'm feeling?
I can't get comfortable in this bed, Lucy where are you?
Next to me of course...of course you are. My one true love-you would never leave me...I wouldn't leave you either.
Never
Never
Never
Even though you sleep soundly, I want to express my love. Oh how I wish you would spontaneously wake and help me.
Help me with what?
I don't know...
My chest burns, it's not the same as love.
As I look down at my hands, I see blood.
H-her blood?
No
No
No
It can't be.
Was it from earlier? It has to be.
I'll never forgive myself. I hurt her.
But she said she is fine. She still loves me...
Love
I love her.
Lucy I don't know what is wrong with me, but I know I won't hurt you.
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
My vision is blurry, is my body moving on its own?
Natsu
Natsu
Natsu
A voice bellowed from the back of my mind.
What was that?
Give in
Give in
Give in
Give in to what? What do you want?
Lucy
Lucy
Lucy
Leave her out of whatever this is!
I'll protect her, I promised.
Stop moving!
Where are you-
No!
What are you going to do to her!
Stop please I'm begging!
Mate
Mate
Mate
My wife is not a tool for breeding, fuck off!
My mouth...it hurts.
...
My teeth are sharper than before- m-my nails are elongated unnaturally.
My horns.
Oh god my horns.
I can't hide them now.
My sight is clouded I can't see past the fog. I can hear her voice. Her sweet, innocent voice.
She's calling to me, asking what's wrong. Oh how she cares, even with me dominating her.
I don't wish to do this, this is not love, I can't control my body. This is no act of love, this is greed for somewhere dark within me.
Lucy I'm sorry, please bear with me. Please don't fight me, I can't control myself.
Maybe...maybe you feel pleasure right now-I don't want to hurt you.
Why are you so rough?
Be gentle with her, if you dare hurt her I'll-
She screams my name. I can't respond, is this her climax or pain?
Done
Done
Done
Leave now, leave me alone.
You've disgraced me, Lucy is mine.
How could you just...just use her body like that?!
Hunger
Hunger
Hunger
Hunger? For what?
Wait, where are you going? You can't just leave Lucy there all alone!
Is she following? No Lucy please! I don't know what he's going to do.
A forest...a forest full of creatures. They are all innocent.
Hunt
Hunt
Hunt
I don't kill for sport, I eat normally, I'm human!
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
GET OUT OF MY HEAD
STOP PLEASE!
There is so much blood- I can only see red.
Why are you doing this!?
My head is throbbing, the pain in my chest is decreasing yet still ablaze.
My vision...its-its clear.
All I can see are the corpses...
Lucy
I can move now.
You look scared, I'm sorry.
I'm crying now, covered in blood. I'm on my knees.
Why is she holding me? I'm a monster.
I love you. She keeps whispering those words in my ear.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm a monster.
What am I becoming?
You
You
You