SAMCRO Girl

Civilty

As i walked through to the "lounge" as they called it everyone was in there drinking, including Juice, i walked over to the Moses basket and led Sophia down, No one had noticed yet
"Where is she , never knew it took a girl that long to get changed" Half-Sack commented , i smirked behind their backs while stroking the baby's head, Sophia let out a gurgling sound, letting me know she's hungry, everyone turned around
"Oh you came in quietly" Half-Sack said "If she's hungry there's no more bottles of that" he said pointing to my breasts "You know" he commented a bit shy, he was obviously new, nobody who had been there over a year would be shy to mention the ladies assets
"breast milk" Gemma remarked as everyone except Juice laughed, Juice just stood their looking down in his beer bottle, he looked uncomfortable, as if he just wanted to run away, I felt guilty, guilty that I subjected him to this.
"well lucky for you , she's on the bottle, you know formula" i said "never liked the thought of breast feeding"
"well you like other activities involving them" Jax commented , i gave him a pretend angry look while i joined in laughing
"anyway, did you get the box of formula from my flat?" i questioned My mum
"yeah behind juice" she said looking unsure i nodded in acknowledgement as i walked over, juice grabbed the box and just trusted it into my arms, not even looking at me
"thanks" i said bluntly , i think by now everyone had noticed the tension as the room had gone silent and I was stood staring guiltily, Juice hadn't even looked up from his beer even though the whole room had gone awkwardly silent as the silence was beginning to get uncomfortable rather than awkward i heard the door open , everyone's eyes shot toward the door, hoping for the distraction from the silence, and as hoped for, in walked k. A tall man with brown curly hair and a brown goatee.
"Tig, we got a surprise" Clay said, as Tig's eyes shot to the Moses basket, a clear look of fear and hostility in his eyes.
"Please don't say someone has pitched up with my baby" he whined as he began to shift nervously everyone chuckled, i decided to drop the cruelty
"hey there" i said as his eyes lit up, i walked over to him and hugged him tightly, Tig had been like a old brother to me except Tig had let me get away with everything as a little girl.
"Livvy , please say that child is yours" he pleaded, i nodded giggling "been a long time , last time i checked you were a burlesque dancer" i gave him a the evils "worth a shot" he said as everyone silently giggled.
"No actually I have a three week old baby Tiger and she is my reason to stay innocent" I purposely 'purred' the last word to tease Tig.
"right we have a job to do" Clay said clapping his hands "Sack, Juice you stay put" he said as everyone made their way to the door, Jax stopped and kissed my forehead, the last two days he seemed to have forgotten the way I had left him.
"Love you lil sis" he commented , i smiled back at him, i made my way over to the half finished bottle and placed it onto the bottle heater, Juice just looked down , i rolled my eyes and sighed, Gemma, noticing my agitation came up to me and kissed me on the cheek
"Sack i have some paper work i need you to do come with me" Kip followed Gemma on her command, and suddenly it was just me and Juice, i didn't know how to start the Conversation so i just sat their staring at him, it was clear he was still hurt from everything I did to him, he would never start the conversation with me, getting sick of the endless silence i spoke out
"Look, i am sorry" i said , he looked up at me, i could see the pain in his eyes more than before, at that moment I saw how I had broken his heart
"I don't know what is worse you leaving with my best friend or you leaving without a word" he answered back, I could hear him holding back the tears
"please okay i...i just want to forget these last three years" i said "he ma..." i didn't finish the sentence "please Juice"
he looked at me confused, i just threw my head down and stared at the baby
"I just want to at least be civil" i said as he got up and walked towards me , he put his hand out as i looked confused
"The bottle it's empty" he said as i looked down, i took the bottle out and gave it to him "as long as im not changing any nappies i will accept that offer" he commented, i smiled at him he gave me a half smile before walking out, after i burped Sophia i put her down in the basket and rolled on to my back to try get some sleep in. As much as I tried I couldn't settle myself, something didn't seem right, I wanted to Believe that juice took my apology to heart I knew deep down he still hated me and only agreed to be civil for the sake of the club.