SAMCRO Girl

Forgiveness

*3 years ago*

I was running towards the club house , i was finally going to tell him i loved him as well, i was wearing my tight black dress, it was difficult to run in but i was going to tell him everything especially what Shane had done to me just before i touched the door handle i heard running footsteps, even though i knew who it was i turned around
"where do you think your going?" the brunette male questioned my actions
"Look Shane , I love Juice, Always have always will" i explained "You made me say i loved you"
"what are you talking about, your mine" he said angrily
"Please we can end this now, no one will know anything just let me be with him" I said he nodded as i turned i could hear him walking closer
"Sorry can't do that" he grabbed my arm forcefully
"Shane get off" he tightened his grip "Your hurting me" he shoved me forward, my heel snapped and i fell grazing my face
"stupid whore, get up " he said angrily
"Touch me and i will scream" i said in a angry but hushed voice
"Oh yeah" he said getting me up grabbing hold of my hair and put a hand over my mouth, quickly and quietly he walked off to his car and shoved me in the seat, locked the doors and sped off.

*Present Day*

by this point everyone was staring at the screen as a tear escaped my eye i walked up and released the tape
"Im sorry , why did you not tell us" juice asked by now his face was tear stained
"I learned to deal with it...with him" i said calmly as juice held his arms out i walked over and he pressed my head against his chest and kissed y head, it was nice to be in his arms, i missed it for so long
"look guys i ..."
"we know" Jax said as everyone nodded , just then Tara walked in
"not interrupting anything am i" she smiled she had Abel in her arm and with the other she was pushing Sophia, we all shook our heads as i walked over to the pushchair and picked up Sophia
"thank you" i said smiling Tara smiled back " and you what you been doin" i said lifting her into the air and kissing her cheek , i felt a hand on my back , i turned around, it was clay , he was making a cooing noise to Sophia i smiled up as he put a hand on my shoulder.
"you don't have to worry now" clay said while walking over to Gemma
"Yeah , i promise you , you will be safe" Jax added and winked at me
As i looked at Juice he was smiling and looking at me , as i looked over he looked down and got up from his chair and got himself a beer , i smiled at the thought of him just looking at me
"hey does anybody realise Christmas is in a week" i said as everyone looked at the calender
"Oh yes, i still need to get Abel something" Jax said
"hang on why don't we all spend Christmas well...here" Gemma Blurted out everyone thought about it for a minute then everyone nodded
"yeah" they all said in unison
"you sure mum, Clay?" i asked both of them who again nodded in unison, a big smile plastered across each of their faces

*10:00pm*
"i'm gonna put Sophia down , then I'll probably head off" i said to everyone
"Okay night sweetie" Gemma said while kissing my forehead
I headed upstairs with Sophia in my arms, when i got in my room i put Sophia on the changing mat on the floor got her nappy changed and put her in her baby Grower, i placed her down in her cot i got myself into y pyjama shorts and a tank top, realising i needed fresh bottles and formula and i needed to put some washing on , i turned Sophia's monitor on, took the other one and a basket full of washing and bottles down
"now i thought you were going to bed" Jax muttered jokily as i walked in
"i was but i have to finish up a few things" i answered back as Tig playfully tickled my side, which he knew was my most ticklish spot, childish i pulled my tongue out him i placed the basket down and put all the washing in the machine and placed the bottles on the side while i ran hot water
"Listen i'm drunk and you come down here showing your legs off" Tig commented Jokily "Shame your not a Stripper"
"Jesus you are crazy" i answered laughing "As for showing my legs off , it gets hot getting up and down all the time for my child" right on cue the monitor started to crackle then the sound of Sophia crying blurted through the Device
"errrgghh" i groaned as i placed my head in my hands
"go on then mum" Bobby called out from the Sofa
"She needs her damn bottle" i said grabbing a new one out the cupboard
"I'll get her for you" Gemma called out as she walked toward the stairs
"thanks mum" i called out turning around i saw the prospect washing the bottles "Oh you don't have to I'll do it"
"it's okay, washing up, kinda my thing" he smiled as he placed the last bottle on the draining board
"thank you " he nodded as i thanked him and made the bottle and warmed it up , exactly that moment mum walked through with Sophia, i gave her the bottle and went and sat down next to Juice
"Your a good mum , you know that?" he told me as i smiled
"thank you, lets just hope she feels the same way" i said pointing towards the child

after about twenty minutes Sophia was fed and burped and asleep in my arms
"okay now im going up" i whispered trying to not wake Sophia
"yeah i better dash too" Juice said
"hey if your coming up could you grab the monitors and bottles for me" Juice nodded in agreement and followed close behind me up the stairs