I Tried So Hard (Kellic)

I Tried So Hard- Chapter 3

                I woke up today still not being able to get Vic and that kiss out my mind. I’ve never been more confused in my life. I’m not gay so I shouldn’t have liked the kiss, but I did. I really liked it. The touch of his lips on mine felt like ecstasy, that’s the only way I can describe it. I woke up really early today so I wouldn’t run into Vic. I don’t know what to say to him. I don’t know what he’ll say. I’m praying to god that he was so drunk he won’t remember. So I got up around 6 and got ready for the day left and went to the cafeteria then the library waiting for my first class of the day to start. The day was pretty uneventful. I went to my classes and tried to stay unseen all day. I got back to my room around 9 and went straight to bed.

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 “Dude, wake up. We need to start getting ready for Trigonometry class. Don’t worry its 8 we have enough time.” Matty said throwing his pillow at me. I totally forgot about Trigonometry and that Vic was in that class until now.

“I don’t feel good dude. I’m going to skip it.” I said with my head buried in my pillow.

“Alright, do you want me to bring any of the work we do?” Matty said while he was getting up and starting to get ready.

“Yeah, thanks.” I said. I couldn’t skip Trigonometry forever but I could get away with a day or two of not going and that was my plan. I dozed back off and woke up to someone knocking on the door. I turned over to see Matty had already left. It didn’t even feel like I had been asleep for more than 10 minutes, but when I looked at the clock it had been 2 hours since Matty tried to wake me up for Trigonometry. Someone knocked on the door again.

“Hello?” I heard a voice say and I recognized the voice as soon as I heard it. It was Vic. I hurried up and jumped out of my bed looking around and I was trapped, nowhere to go. I did the first thing that popped in my mind and went in the closet. I stayed as quiet as possible hoping he would go away. Then I heard keys, he was using the keys open the door. I’m screwed. I just kept trying to be as quiet and as still as possible. He opened the door and I heard him come in. “Hello?” he said again. My heart was beating so fast. I heard him walking around and then stop. I saw the shadow of his feet under the closest door.

“Fuck.” I said whispering to myself. He started to open the door. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was about to explode.

“Why are you in the closet?” He asked looking at me. I was in nothing but my boxers.

“I.. uh.. I was looking for something.” I said looking around trying not to make eye contact with him.

“In the dark?” He said skeptical of my response.

“I have really good vision. 20/20 to be exact.” I said walking out the closet passing him. I went to my draw and put on a t-shirt and some shorts. “What are you doing here? Why aren’t you in Trigonometry?” I asked.

“I knew you wouldn’t go to class.” He said.

“So. I’m not feeling good and what does that have to do with anything?” I asked. He was looking at me and I kept trying to look anywhere but in his eyes but he was making it so hard.

“Well you look good” He said. I looked at him shocked that he even said that and I saw a smile across his face. I couldn’t believe he was sitting here hitting on me.

“What do you want?” I asked trying to act like it was nothing.

“I want to talk about the night before” he said and took a step closer.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” I said lying and I think he could tell.

“Really? Cause I drank more than you and I could still never forget a kiss like that.” He said and took another step forward. He was getting close and I was getting more nervous. I tried to move back but it was like my feet were glued in place.

“I- I- I really have no idea what you’re uh.. talking about” I lied again and it was more obvious with me now stuttering.

“Really?” He said and took another step forward. I couldn’t speak anymore. “Are you sure?” he said and took another step forward. We were inches apart, my throat felt like it was closing and my legs were shaking. “Maybe I can refresh your memory?” and he pulled me in by my waist and kissed me. And my legs that were shaking now gave out on me. Luckily the bed was right there and I fell back on it and he fell on top of me, not letting our lips break. I wasn’t fighting the kiss, I couldn’t. He slipped his tongue in my mouth. I pulled on his shirt trying to pull him closer to me but he couldn’t get any closer than he already was. He pressed down harder on my lips deepening the kiss. We were both breathing hard out of our noses and my mind was shot. I had no idea what I was doing and I couldn’t control it. I put hand on his ass and as he tried to break the kiss to breath for a second I used my other hand to grab his face and immediately put his lips back on mine lodging my tongue down his throat in the process. I felt this frenzy through my body giving me that feeling of ecstasy again. His phone rang but he ignored it and started rubbing his hand up and down my thigh which hitched my breathing. I ran my fingers through his hair. Now both of us putting our tongues in the others mouth fighting for control. His phone started to ring again. He pulled away in frustration, got off the bed and answered his phone. Leaving me there trying to catch my breath and coming down from the frenzy raging through my body. Once I caught my breath and came back to reality he hung his phone up.

“I have to go. There’s an urgent dorm room advisors meeting going on.” He said not so enthused, looking at me. I couldn’t speak it was like I went mute but even if I could I didn’t know what to say it felt pretty awkward, every time we get alone this is what happens. So I just stared at him. Well I stared at his lips because I really wanted them back on mine. This was so confusing I’ve never been attracted to another guy before but I find myself wanting to get off this bed and maul him. “I’ll uh.. see you later, okay?” he said getting my attention as I almost slipped into a daydream. I just nodded my head still unable to speak. He waved to me and gave a little smile before he walked over to the door, opened it and walked out. I sat on the edge of my bed replaying everything that just happened, still trying to understand how it escalated so quickly.

“Hey man, why was the dorm room advisor coming out our room?” Matty said curiously throwing his bag on the ground. I hesitated.