I Tried So Hard (Kellic)

I Tried So Hard- Chapter 17

After last night I just wanted to get away and forget about the big fight with Vic so I drove Taylor to a nearby hotel and I stayed there overnight on the couch but I didn’t get much sleep because no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t stop thinking about Vic. I don’t even know if we’re broken up or not. I’m hoping we didn’t, but at the same time if he still wants to lay low then I don’t know if that’s the type of relationship I want to be in. I liked how our relationship was before all this crap started and I wasn’t asking for us to come out in the open I just want it to go back to normal but now we’re here, not talking and I don’t even know what we are, if we are anything anymore.

I left Taylor back at the hotel to get ready while I went back to my dorm to take a shower and change my clothes. Today we’re going to Disneyland with Matty and Brittany. As I got to the front door of the dorm building I saw a piece of paper taped on the door, the heading was in big red letters so I assumed it was important and decided to stop and read it, it was list of new  dorm rules followed by the old ones. Basically it says that we are not allowed to have visitors past 10pm, we cannot have overnight guest under any circumstances, and we are all supposed to be back at the dorms by 11pm on weekdays; if  not we do not comply with these rules will be reported to the dean. I knew these new rules were because of me and this is just pissing me off, now he wants to act like a little kid. I shook it off and decided to not let it ruin my day. I went upstairs and talked to Matty for a little bit about how ridiculous the rules were but stopped when he asked about why Vic would all of a sudden make these rules, I didn’t want him to know Vic and I were having problems. I took a shower and got dress then Matty and I went to get Brittany and left to go pick up Taylor.

As we got to Disneyland we walked around for a little then rode some rides. It was really fun and kind of a getaway from all this drama that’s been going on the past couple days. Brittany and Taylor hit it off and became friends pretty quickly. I still hadn’t had a serious conversation with Tay while she’s been out here but it was definitely nice having her out here. It’s nice to see a familiar face and definitely nice to just be around someone who I’m not having drama with and doesn’t know about anything what’s going on currently. I know that tonight we’re going to have to have that serious conversation because she’s been acting like she still has feelings for me all day today so I might as well stop her before she gets too invested into the fact that we could get back together. Even though we had a relationship in the past I only see her as a friend now.

                We went to a nearby restaurant after we left Disneyland and then to Rita’s to grab some Italian Ices. After we dropped Brittany and Matty back off at the dorms then Taylor and I headed to her hotel. Once we got there we watched a movie and once it was over I looked at the time and realized that it was almost curfew so I had to get back. I knew that since Vic made the rules because of me he would definitely be checking if I was in on time.

“Alright, I have to get back to the dorms.” I got up off the couch and stretched my arms above my head.

“Come on, stay.” Taylor said giving me the puppy dog eyes.

“I can’t, dorm rules.”

“You stayed here last night though.” She said.

“Yeah, I know but the dorm room advisor added new rules this morning when I got back.” I gave her a ‘sorry’ look.

“That guy that came in the room last night and said I had to leave?” She asked. I nodded. “He’s a douche.”

“Mhm.” I said awkwardly.

“Like that was such a dick move, kicking me out even though I didn’t have a place to stay, such a dick.” She rolled her eyes. I didn’t say anything I just stood there listening to here. “I feel sorry that you have to deal with him I would’ve been flipped out by now. I’ve only met him once and I want to punch him in the face.”

“Alright, that’s enough.”  I interrupted her. I was actually getting pissed that she was talking shit about him. I know I’m mad at him but still, I don’t want anyone talking shit about him and besides she doesn’t even know him.

“What? You’re gonna defend him? You gotta admit kicking me out last night with no place to stay was a dick move.” She said.

“Yeah, but still.”

“Still what?” she asked looking confused.

“Still, he’s my boyfriend and only I can talk shit about him when I’m pissed.” I blurted out.

 “Your boyfriend? You’re funny.” She laughed.

“Not funny, just gay.” I looked at her and her jaw was basically on the ground and her eyes were wide like an owl.

“You’re not gay Kellin.” She said defensively. It was weird, I wasn’t insulting her but she sure was acting like it.

“Yes I am.” I replied bluntly.

“No you’re not!” She got louder.

“Yes. I am. Why is it such a big deal that I am?” I asked.

“Because I was the last girl you dated and now you’re gay, that means I made you gay.”

I chuckled in amazement. She had the most serious expression on her face I had ever seen in my life. I couldn’t believe she was actually trying to make this about her. I picked up my jacket and began walking to the door.

“You know now I remember why we broke up.” I said walking out the door and closing it behind me.

                On the drive back to the dorm I was just getting more irritated because I was actually having a good day forgetting the loads of drama going on in my life and then Taylor had to go back to being her old self and bringing me back to reality. I guess it was just wishful thinking to believe I wouldn’t have to deal with this crap sooner or later. Once I arrived at the dorm I looked at my phone to see what time it was and it was already 10 minutes pass the curfew. I got out the car and began walking towards the dorm slowly; I was already late so what’s difference of how late I actually am? It was quiet once I got into the building so I walked back to the stairwell quietly as I got down the hall I saw Vic standing at his door just staring at me with this pissed look on his face.

“What? I’m ten minutes late. You gonna report me?” I cheekily said. He just closed the door in my face and I heard him lock it. I rolled my eyes and walked to the stairwell getting ready to head upstairs.

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Vic’s POV

                I rested my head against the door as I locked it. I really wanted to go out there and just kiss Kellin and stop all this fighting but at the same time I didn’t. He just infuriates me at the same time makes me love him. I don’t even know how that’s possible but all I know is I’m feeling like a girl with all these emotions I’m going through. I turned my back to the door and slide down the wall bringing my knees to my chest. I still want Kellin and I to lay low but he’s acting like I’m just saying let’s break up. If I talk to him now I know I’ll say something I’ll regret. So I’m just going to keep my distance but from what I’ve seen with him and that girl Taylor he looks happy with her. So maybe he isn’t gay, maybe this is why we’re having so many problems; because he’s trying to be someone he’s not or maybe he’s still trying to find himself. All I know is that I’m 100% secure in who I am and if he’s not then maybe we should just forget the whole laying low thing and actually break up because at the end of the day I’m the one is gonna get hurt at the end of all this, he’ll just go back to his high school sweetheart, Taylor. Yeah, the more I sit here and think about it the more better it sounds. It’s the safer choice for me to make sure I don’t get hurt any more than I already am. The question now is; How in the hell am I gonna break up with Kellin Quinn?