Another City Of Lights.

Chapter 9.

Samantha's POV:

If I was being truly honest, sometimes I wanted to kill everyone. Maybe not kill exactly, but atleast punch them or something.
I hated this time of the month. It made me sensitive and annoyed and angry all at the same time. I got mad and hurt over the slightest of things, and I would end up crying. It was just very messy, and irritating.
And to top it off, Aaron got on my nerves, and we fought. I'm not sure if that classified as a fight exactly, but it sort of felt that way. I didn't like fighting with him, but it wasn't my fault. He was being so inconsiderate and arrogant...he was being like..himself.
And since I was high on hormones, it annoyed me more than it should have.

Although I didn't expect him to vanish after that.
He didn't text, call or meet after that. Even when I met up with Dash and Hailey at the tea shop, he didn't show up. No excuses either, just said he didn't have the time.
It was an awkward affair, that meeting at the tea shop. It was supposed to be my going away mini-party kind of thing, but it was silent and sullen.
Dash and Hailey knew I was quiet for the same reason they were uncomfortable, so we didn't talk about it. We just sat for hours over there and talked about our future plans and hopes and things we planned to do in these much deserved vacations.
And I watched them talking and laughing, and I thanked the God that I had them in my life.
I wasn't much of a social butterfly if you know what I mean. I was that quiet, nerdy girl at the back of the class that didn't speak much. I was shy, truthfully, I was. But I also didn't feel the need to create fake friendships with random people. I already had the friends I wanted and needed, didn't want anything other than them.

I walked back home alone that day, it felt so weird.
I had gotten so used to Aaron, I realised, and it was scary.
Being dependent on something or someone wasn't in my nature, and I never wanted it to be.

We moved in to our new house, or rather, apartment, that same week.
It was bright and sparkling and clean before we entered it, and it was collateral damage after we did.
Boxes were arranged haphazardly all over the floor, in every single room. And right away, Mum and I got to work. Unpacking everything and arranging them accordingly.
It became apparent that we couldn't unpack it all in one day, and so, we decided to do the kitchen first.

By the time we had unpacked all the boxes of plates, cups and glasses, I could barely even stand. I was so tired, and looking forward to sleeping in my own bed for the first time ever.

It wasn't surprising when I couldn't sleep that night. I never could when I was most tired, I have no idea why though.
I did try to sleep, I lay in bed for a good two hours before deciding that I was extremely bored now.
So, I got up and searched for my cellphone, finding it hidden deep inside the pocket of my school bag, and I plugged it in to charging.
I had planned on texting Hailey, but it looked like she beat me to it. There were already several messages waiting for me when my phone finally came to life. Most of them from Hailey, and two from Aaron. That made me smile, he texted me himself, which meant I won.
I opened his first, without even thinking about it.
The first one was just a simple 'hello'.
And the next one, well that caught me off guard.
He just stated that he "wanted to let me know" that he and Dash were going to college together. They had even got accepted.
It was a good thing, I knew it was a good thing. They were so close and it was amazing for them.
But I didn't know why I had a sudden feeling of loneliness swirling inside of me now.
I was going to be alone. No Hailey, no Dash, and no Aaron.
Alone in a gigantic school, with hundreds of strangers.

The reality hit me harder than I had expected. I was overreacting, I knew that for sure, but when did I ever not?
I kept my phone away, unsure of what to reply to him even, and made myself some coffee.

I went to bed after the sun had risen, and I fell asleep instantly, my new, untouched pillow damp from crying all night long.