Another City Of Lights.

Chapter 29.

                    December, New York.

Samantha's POV:~

I'm so uncoordinated that I can't believe myself.
I'm never this uncoordinated, but this week has been completely mental, and literally the worst one I've yet.

I did badly on two of the three quizzes this week, even though I stayed up all night studying for it, and my roommate ruined my favourite sweatshirt that she borrowed from me for a day.

And now I'm officially four hours late today. Actually I'm not late, because Remy doesn't know that I'm coming, so I could basically just go anytime I want, but since I'm such a nerd about time management, I had decided to go over around 4, and now it's 8, and I have to wonder if this is a bad idea.

But because I've already changed and packed an overnight bag, I decide to just go with my plan.

And I really need to do this, because I haven't seen him in a month. A month. And even the last time we met, he came to see me, and we had sort of an argument that ended badly. I've texted him on and off since then, but it feels weird not to see him. I've never been able to take out time from my schedule, and I do feel shitty about it. Because even though I assumed that he would be pissed off or angry with me, Remy actually took on an even gentler side, and literally helped me with everything when my classes first started and I moved out of his house. He helped me move in, and visited me often. I didn't really feel his absence sometimes. And I'm pretty sure my roommate has a crush on him.

But now it's a bit different. Because we've both been busy and I know he expected me to come and apologise, but I didn't do anything. I focused all my energy on my classes and exams and now I think I realised a bit too late how I'm such an idiot sometimes.

It was beginning to rain when I arrived near his apartment, with two lattes and two grilled chicken sandwiches in my hand.
I ran rest of the way, not wanting the food to get wet, and I was breathless when I was done climbing the two flight of stairs that led to his house.

I stood outside the door for a total of ten minutes just to calm myself down before I knocked. I was sure I looked absolutely ridiculous with my overflowing bag dropping off of my shoulder, and all the food in my hands.
But I had to remember that this was just Remy. A Remy that I needed to apologise to.

I build up what little courage I had, and knocked on the door, although I did have a key and could've just gone inside, but I didn't want to push him any further.
This way atleast he had the choice of opening the door and letting me in, or otherwise.

Remy opened the door a few minutes later, and looked at me like he hadn't seen me in ages. Which was partially true, I guess.
He wasn't wearing a shirt, just his incredibly baggy trousers that he loved sleeping in. His hair was utterly messed up and standing in different directions on his head. But he still looked good, so damn good.

"Hi", I said, and it came out as a squeak, immediately embarrassing me.
"Hi", He looked amused as he replied, probably enjoying this a lot, "did something happen?".
"Uh, no..", I said, I didn't know how to say what I had in my mind, because it sounded incredibly stupid, and it was looking like a bad idea now.
"Umm, since it's Christmas break, I thought we could spend it together?", I swallowed up my pride and said it anyway, I had already come this far with all my stuff, I couldn't go back now.

I felt like an absolute idiot, and I was staring at my feet instead of looking at him now.
It felt all wrong coming out of my mouth, I have no idea why I had just assumed that I would just casually walk in like always, and now he was taking a while to say anything which probably meant it was a no.
But my overthinking mind was quickly shut off because before I could process what was happening, he was kissing me.
He kissed me long and hard, and then burst in to laughter when I wobbled on my feet and dropped my bags on the floor.

"I missed you, pretty girl", He said, making me blush again, "I thought for a while you weren't coming home".

I shook my head, and hugged him. Not as an apology, but just because I missed him too. And just as always, being with him made all my worries vanish in to thin air, like nothing else mattered at this moment except for me and him.

When I finally detached myself from him, and he pulled me inside, clearly very ecstatic about the fact that I had brought coffee too, I felt right at home. I felt as if I had never left, and I pushed all the guilty feelings aside.

I didn't know he was very festive, but the entire ceiling was decorated with Christmas lights, which were really small, but big enough to be visible. It made the tiny room glow, and I felt myself melting at the sight of it.

"I had some lying around, and I knew you liked them, so I kind of put them up a while ago", He said, watching my reaction intently.

I was just smiling like a fool, and I didn't know if that was enough of a reaction for this. I had always been bad at reactions anyway, like that time when Dash, Hailey and Aaron surprised me for my birthday and I acted so rude.

I didn't know why I was thinking about that at a time like this, and I quickly pushed the thought away. It was weird, because I usually didn't think about it so much now, but I guess some memories don't fade.

We had dinner after that, sitting so close to each other at the kitchen counter, and eating the rain soaked food I had brought.

I think we stayed up the entire time that night, watching bad reality tv and finishing the many cups of hot chocolate that he made.

And when after a couple of hours, we were finally ready to go to bed, I remember that we couldn't keep our hands to ourselves. Less hesitation, more new-found courage this time. Or maybe it was just because of the time we had spent apart.

Whatever it was, it wasn't just him, now it was me too, with no more guilt inside me.

Now all I had was love, and longing. For this guy who was so good to me, and who was all I had now.