EERIE LOVE

☽ ᖴIᑎᗩᒪᒪY ᕼᗩᑭᑭY ☾

I awoke gasping for air & immediately scanned the bed expecting for Jase to be clinging on to me. Instead I was left alone in the bed, suddenly there was crashing from downstairs & yelling; I couldn't hear what Jason was screaming about and I wanted to find out.

Knowing Jason was upset I was intrigued to hear him clearer, still not being able to hear him I went downstairs to find a shattered mirror with blood stains covering the floor. The on going yells still didn't stop me until I came to a halt, & was standing in front of the same door Jason told me not to go in.

Conflicted with the consequences of opening the door I decided to barge in on him, what I saw was absolutely horrendous.

We were in a small room that looked like an interrogation room, it had multiple guns, knives, and gases. The worst part is there was blood all over the table, bloody blades were on the floor and a broken Jason was sitting in the corner of the room crying.

Seeing him in this weak of a position absolutely broke my heart.

He was to much into his self dwelling and hurting his perfectly good body to notice I was standing only a few feet away from him.

My eyes were teary as I bent down to him "Jase"

He looked up and a flash of fear came across his face, he was scared for me to see him so vulnerable.

"Doll"

I was pulled into a hug as we both sat on the floor, I pulled Jason's arm out and gasped at five long cuts going down his arms. The length and deepness of the cuts would require him to be treated at the hospital.

"The cuts will be gone in a few hours they won't even leave any scarring, I'm not fully human & my tattoos will cover them up anyways."

"How many times?"

I looked Jase in the eyes my voice wavering trying to hold back sobs.

"What do you mean?"

"How many times have you done this Jase?"

"Seven" He looked away from me

Letting out a long sigh I let the tear drops fall

"I'm sorry"

"Why did you do it?"

"I was tired of... living, so I went downstairs to attempt to end it. Before I walked out the room I gave you a quick kiss when you were sleeping. Then came down here and lost control doll..... I lost fυ¢кιиg control. I'm sorry I was never enough for you and I've failed you terribly, I ruined your perfectly normal life. ιм ѕσяяу ∂σℓℓ."

"Are you giving up on us?" tears still stained my face

I willed myself to imagine a future where Jason wasn't in my life and what a horrible future that would be. These past two months I've given him quite an adventure and he's stuck with me through it all.

At this point I've moved on from Parker someone who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Then came along Dylan and I still continue to love him, but those three words I said to Dylan don't feel as powerful as imagined they would be to say to Jason.