EERIE LOVE

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I needed to figure out how I can send the message to Parker to let him know that I'm alive, but he will иєνєя see me again. I also want to tell him something that I think we've both been wanting to say, "ι ℓσνє уσυ". Even though saying "ι ℓσνє уσυ" can be a big deal in a relationship, for Parker and I we will never be able to have the dream relationship we've always secretly wanted.

"Good luck with that"

I had fully forgotten that Jason was there next to me, I can't believe I totally forgot that he can read my mind. There goes my plan.

"Why do you need to say goodbye if your still alive? Plus you have me to keep you company." Jason said looking at me with a genuinely confused look.

"Well I know that I'm иєνєя going to be able to see him or any of my friends and family again. So I just wanted to let him know that I'm still alive and that I will miss him and everyone else." I said looking at the ground starting to feel myself about to explode physically and emotionally.

"Are you about to ¢яу?" Jason said still looking at me with his confused expression

"I'm going to explode someday Jason, and it's not going to be a pretty sight." I said looking directly in his eyes

"But that's why I иєє∂ you Lana, because before I thought I was going to explode to. Until I found you and realized you were my last piece to my puzzle to keep me from falling apart." Jason said while looking at his hands

"I'm not happy Jason, I never was."

"But you always used to seem-" Jason was abruptly interrupted

"I always ѕєєм happy, anyone can walk around with a smile plastered on their face and you would never know if they cry themselves to sleep every night." I said slightly getting annoyed

"Are you one of those people that cried themselves to sleep every night?"

"I would think that you knew that considering you use to watch my every move for months. But to answer your question no I didn't, I wanted to do more than cry myself to sleep every night."

"I'm sorry I-" Jason was interrupted again

"Marzia was the one that kept me going everyday, she kept me from falling not because she was always happy and positive. She kept me going because she was just as broken as me and worse, we brought out the best in each other."

"I'm broken to Lana, just like you and you bring out my better half."

"But you don't bring out the better me. Its like Yin and Yang they balance єα¢н σтнєя."

"I can.... ωє can fix that."

I didn't feel like hearing him or anyone right now, I wanted to do what I usually do when I'm feeling sad. I wanted to go sit in the corner of my room, listen to Lana Del Rey, and read.

I got up from the bed and didn't even look back at Jason, I walked to the opened door with feeling somewhat freedom as I was about to walk out the door. Before I even walked halfway to the door Jason was already there blocking my doorway to freedom.

"I see next time I'm actually going to have to lock the door, and keep you in here like a caged animal."

I didn't say anything to Jason I just turned around and sat in the corner of the room, I immediately saw Jason lock the door.

"Your not leaving until you walk out the room grinning ear to ear. Now.... Tell me why your sad."

"Your just like the others." I said looking at the floor

"What do you mean by тнє σтнєяѕ?"

"Your like one of those super popular people that just wouldn't let me go, they would never give me a break. They just kept ρυѕнιиg мє and ρυѕнιиg мє and ρυѕнιиg мє, until I was at the edge of a cliff. That's until Marzia came into my life just as broken as I and we both saved each other."

"I don't think you get it, when you were standing there at the door blocking me from going through the door way. That's єχα¢тℓу what they use to do to me, and I'm not saying they always literally use to not let me pass through the doorway. I'm saying that every time I would try to ignore them and gєт συт they would always block me from walking out the door way to my нαρριиєѕѕ. So if you ∂αяє think I'm going to walk out тнαт door grinning ear to ear and giggly, then I believe you fell in love with the wrong Lana Bisogin." I said already feeling myself about to explode

"No I believe I fell in love with the right Lana Bisogin, and who are тнє σтнєяѕ name so that I can destroy there happiness." Jason said with his eyes turning black

"No Jason it's not worth it, and I try not to fight fire with fire. I believe all of the horrible things they've done to me and other people will come back to bite them in the butt hard in the future."

"I can fix you, I can make you better." Jason said with a look like he could actually help me. Aww poor thing.... No one can fix me. I'm already dead.

"Your иσт dead Lana ѕтσρ thinking like that, and I can fix you. Now your bringing me down, and your suppose to mostly make me happy. At the looks of it I'm going to guess your not very hungry, or your going to just reject anything I try to give you. So how about we go to bed?" Jason said slightly annoyed by me and my depression. He just gave up like the rest of them do, they never want to listen to everything I want to say. Just like I said before, I'm already dead.

Jason gave me a pained expression, I knew that he just heard what I thought. But Jason's feelings were the last thing on my mind. I was going to put up a fight about how I don't want to sleep in the same bed as him, but I remembered how big the bed is and that I can just sleep on the opposite side of Jason.

I got up and Jason went to the dresser and picked out a white shirt, which was oversized on me and grey sweat pants. After I changed I moped over to the bed and laid down, I felt eyes bore into my head. I felt the bed move, I could tell by the movement of the bed Jason was deciding whether or not he should hold me or just let me be.

Luckily Jason let me be alone for about ten minutes until I heard him mumble something under his breath, and violently threw an arm over me and pulled me to him.

"Goodnight Lana" Jason said in a angry tone

Why is he so angry? I'm the one that's depressed, I'm the one who got taken away from all of my friends and family. Jason just got what he wanted which was мє, and he has me..... just not the way he wanted me.

"Good bye Jason" I said for some odd reason instead of saying goodnight

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Hey I know it's been a while, but the reason why I haven't updated as often is because I'm not getting enough views or votes as I would like for each chapter. But of course I'm still going to keep updating, until the next chapter BYE!

~MIA