EERIE LOVE

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Dylan

I can't think clearly with him in my mind it now, I've never seen someone just switch their emotions so quickly before. Jason was the only other person who I've seen get into his 'episodes' but with Dylan it was different.

I was use to Jason acting that way but with Dylan I couldn't predict what he would do next. That was the most terrifying part, & the worst thing was I would have to have these nightmares every night.

I couldn't tell Jason what was happening or else Dylan would put me in a coma for the rest of my life. This wouldn't be an easy task considering the slightest suspicion would cause Jason to hear my thoughts and give away my secret.

"Good morning doll" Jason looked at me with a smirk on his adorable face

"Good morning Jase, how did you sleep? Are you feeling better from last night?"

"I slept amazing thanks to your help I'm just so fucking happy I have you Lana. I can't wait to start our life together & settle down with our own little people running around the house"

"Jase I'm happy that you're finally happy, but I'm eighteen I haven't even finished high school. I'm not ready to commit to marriage & kids within the next few years"

He let out a long sigh "I'm sorry Lana if I scared you with marriage & kids, it just sucks to always be on the move. I've seen and slept with all different types of women, now I'm ready to call you my wife and have beautiful kids of our own"

I never really realized just how much of a family man Jase is; Dylan warned me about how fast he moves in a relationship. It's only so long I can tell him how much I love him until he asked the 'big question' I knew I wouldn't have much of a choice but to say yes.

I'm just scared of Dylan

I'm scared of how fast Jason wants to move in our relationship

I'm scared of how Jason can become an emotionless monster

Before I was taken away all I could think about was my future and now I'm dreading it; my life is no longer in my grasp. It's already planned out for me with Jason and although I love him I don't want my future controlled.

"What's going on in that pretty head of yours doll? You were zoning out on me"

I can't tell him what's going on but I can let him know how I really feel.

"Jason I'm scared"

"Scared! Lana what happened? Did anyone hurt you? Did I hurt you? Is someone hurting you I will fuck-"

"No Jason no one is hurting me it's just I'm scared of my future... I'm scared of our future"

"Why the hell would you be scared of our future together?"

"That's why I'm scared- you want all the things in life I'm to scared to do. I want to marry you! I want to call you my husband! I want to have kids with you but I'm scared I'll mess everything up"

Jason gave me a pained look

"Every day I wake up & either choose to be positive and look at the day as another opportunity to make a change. Or I wake up with years of diagnosed depression, majoring anxiety attacks, and mean girls at school who wouldn't shut up. A majority of the time I would wake up with dried tear stains & untouched blades on my dresser so tempting to use. I'm just a scared teenage girl."

Jason grabs both of my wrist examining them closely looking for any signs of cuts

"You never did it did you?"

"No, I never cut because I was to scared my fear is the main reason I'm still alive"

"I'm very proud of you Lana I know It's hard to feel worthless every single morning not feeling the slightest bit motivated to get out of bed. You did it Lana and I will always love you, you don't have to be so scared any more I'll always protect you"

Hearing those words from him put me to ease I'm so thankful to have someone who's been through similar feelings. Instead of a partner who would find my breakdowns and anxiety  'over dramatic' or 'annoying' but with Jase he knows how to handle me.

"You know that speech you gave really turned me on"

"Really now?" Jason shifted closer to me

"Yeah Jason you look so sexy when you got all caring over me; but then again when don't you look sexy?"

"Like never"

"Gosh I love you so much"

I jumped tackling him into a bear hug only to be tackled back with a much stronger force

"I love you to doll"

With that Jason gave me a good morning kiss & carried me to the bathroom to do our morning routine.

What a great way to start the day with the man I really love

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I hope you all are having a wonderful day until the next part BYE!

~MIA