The Jungle

Chapter 37 (Part 1)

Brooklyn POV

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially missing you-
-Tamia

It's been approximately 4 weeks, 8 hours, 45 minutes and 34 secs since I last seen Dérion.

When he came to my room that day I didn't realize how much I missed him until then. I just wanted to run to his arms and stay there forever. But my brain was not allowing it.

That day I saw him at that hotel I felt like shit like I wasn't even worth an explanation. I went straight to Cali house because I didn't even want to look at his villa and cried the entire night.

My insomnia started coming back again because it's like I always attracted the worst of situations. I knew as soon as I would've closed my eyes everything bad that has every happened to me would've came back in my dreams but ten times worse.

I want to tell Dérion that I forgive him but he told another women he loved her that something hard to forgive but because I love him so much I'm more than willing to work it out.

Forget it though, why would he take me back after all that stuff I said to him. He probably doesn't even wanna speak to me anymore.

"Brooklyn? Ughun get that ass up you been in bed for a few days now time to get up" my thoughts were interrupted by Cali barging into my room.

She pulled back the curtains making the bright sunlight of the day come in. I automatically started squinting my eyes to block the rays from them.

"Get up sleeping beauty come on" Cali said pulling the blanket off of me.

"Alright damn mom! I'm up" I said sliding against the headrest.

"Babes!! You been in this room for a while are you ok?" I looked down and started playing with my fingers.

"Cali I miss him"

"Ok so why don't you tell him that?"

"My minds not letting me it's like it's a bad idea, I just don't know"

"Brooklyn I understand he hurt you the nigga is known for fuck ups wide lip ass but that man loves you a lot and believe me if I know him better it sure wasn't his intention on hurting you"

"Yea that maybe true but I threw a lot of shit in his face he probably don't even want to see me?" I said looking down.

"Well ma y'all both did shit to each other but your love is something unrealistic. Words don't base a relationship, believing with your heart that that's him does. So it's time to follow that heart girl" I smiled at Cali because she was right. Im not sure about a lot but I do know that I love that man with everything in me so I will get home back. I just hope he's on the same page as me.

"Your right"

"I know I am now get out of bed were going to have a girls day today. First we going shopping then I'm taking you to a reggae club so we can get our pati on man" she said the last part trying to sound Jamaican.

"Ok let me go get dressed" I said getting out the bed and fixing it.

"O shit bitch! You don't have no objections?" I looked at her for a second.