Just Admit You Love Me (COMPLETED)

Chapter 23: Silence so loud.

Chapter 23: Sean

Holding Junior's hand nearly broke my heart.

He was so helpless.
Being told he would be out of football had done a number on him. He wasn't just losing football, but scholarships too. Coach Brick had called some scouts to come see the state championship... The state championship Junior wouldn't be in.
I've never seen Junior cry in front of me. I have seen him drop a few tears but never full on cry. Yet, here he was his eyes squinted and his tears flowing like there would never be an end.

"Junior, it'll be okay." I mumbled not so sure myself.
I was trying to console a boy with broken dreams. School doesn't prepare you for this. Ever.
"How Sean?!?! How will this be okay! I was hoping of going to college for football! I haven't been scouted yet. I have no future!" He yelled.
When he yelled it seemed all his problems were triggered by me. I'm not the one who blindsided him! I was supporting him!
I dropped his hand and stood up.

"And is this my fault? Stop yelling at me, Junior! It isn't my fault! None of it is!" I screamed back.

"How the hell not, Sean?!?! If you hadn't dated Carter he wouldn't want to hurt me! You were so desperate for my attention you dated my enemy to get to me! This outcome is on your shoulders!" He screamed at me. His blood pressure elevating. His heart monitor beeped a little faster, while I'm sure my heart rate slowed down after realizing what he was implying. He saw this as my fault. I dated Carter. I caused the drama.. Me....

"What are you talking about!?!?! If you hadn't kissed Ashton in front of the entire school we would not be here! We would still be friends. We would have had the perfect Senior Year!" I yelled, beyond furious now.

"Oh so you would rather be friends than date me?!?!" He yelled clenching his teeth and the bed sheets.

His leg bruised now and stitched up was laying there under the sheets. Junior had no shirt on just the blanket and some boxers because he insisted to not wear the hospital gown. I couldn't help but check him out earlier, his fine chiseled abs exposed to the chilled air. It was hardly fair.

"I never said that Junior." I answered in a normal voice. I felt the tears coming. I saw where this argument was taking us. Hours ago we were side by side madly in love. Fast forward to now and I could feel the tension between us. I could visibly see Junior locking himself up.

"Sean I think I need some time alone. I love you but I know if you stay here with me, I will just yell at you more." He looked at the window blankly.

"Junior look at me." I said begging for this to be over. He was stubborn I was too but I loved him.
He didn't turn instead he kept his facial expression hardened and looked out the window as if watching a play.
"Please" I pleaded again anxiously waiting for him to just turn his head. LOOK AT ME JUNIOR. Look at me and realize I'm your girlfriend. Dammit!
"Fine" I mumbled before stomping off. I turned around and looked at him. I smiled at how handsome he still looked. He may have just broken my heart but he still made it flutter.

"I love you too, Junior." I said opening the door and heading out.

As I walked down the hallway I just thought about Junior.

He was so sweet, I knew he never wanted to lose me.

I had one destination that I needed to go to.

Carter.

I walked to my car making sure to look around for cars before I pulled out. I slathered on some lip gloss and pulled into the highway.

Jamming to music was the last of my worries. I finally found his drive and went to talk to him.

I pulled up in his driveway.