kassie's pov.
on the way home i felt weird, and empty again.. wait what? i felt different.. I felt something.
it was cold outside and it was still raining too. so i took off my glasses and put them in my bag. i dont even know why i wear them... they make me look stupid. i was shaking because of the cold and i had a hard time steering and stay on my side of the path. so i got alot of angry looks and mumbles that im stupid. but hey, i hear those every day. so why would it be different now? it hurts, yes the words hurt but im so used to them that i have nothing to get hurt about anymore. i dont have feeling anymore, well i do cause i hate myself more than anything. but i dont , i dont laugh, i dont get scared anymore. its all gone.
when i got home i instantly showered......
"Kassie" my littlest sister yelled. ''what?'' i answered and walked to the staircase. ''im hungry'' she pouted. ''alright, alright im coming..'' i sighed and walked down the stairs after i put on a long sleeve vest.
i cooked dinner, i said to my sisters that they could get the table in the kitchen ready. they happened to listen, but i guess its just because theyre very very hungry. i put down the plates and gave everybody some food. i guess they liked what i made, because they didnt talk... they ate like freaking piggs. 'hey, did you guys take food to school today?'' i asked them. they all nodded.. ''why are you guys eating like a bunch of piggs then?'' ''we're just hungry okay?'' and they continued eating without looking at me anymore. ''okay then.'' i said more to myself then to them. my oldest stepsister rolled her eyes. she is really getting on my nerves lately.. sometimes i can like really shoot her.
after everybody finished, i cleaned up. it was my turn to do the dishes today, so i did. its pretty hard to do with the cuts, and trying to hide it from everybody.. but i pulled it of.. nobody noticed, but once again... just because they didnt care enough to do so.
i sended my littlest sister into the shower, cause my mom said she has to be in bed in half an hour. and everybody follows half an hour later than the previous.. except for me and my oldest stepsister... offcourse.
when i finished doing the dishes, i grabbed my laptop and started to listen to music, watch clips and stuff. then he popped up in my mind... that never happens, oh my god.. what is happening?! i dont feel like im gonna like this, he is gonna break the walls around my heart down and crush it. just like everybody. but at the other end.. i feel like he's a different guy for some kind of reason. it seemed like he cares.. his appearance.. I just don't know..
(A/N)
Hii guys..
I know this is a short one... but I dont have much time lately.. im also not doing really well or feeling very happy at this moment... WHILE I SHOULD BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING DECEMBER..
I'm just sorry for the wait.. it'll be okay
