when i was on my way home from school i remembered that its saturday tomorrow. and that means i have to work in the restaurant, but this time alone.
i was on my way home, but i actually want to visit mom. i need to give her something from my mentor. and i was closer to that place then home. so why not. it was cold and wet again. and guess what, i had PE again. i hate that class. i always look like shit even more than i did before. but hey, theyre just my parents. its not like there is someone in there that i like or am nice too.. the ''guests'' are usually assholes too.
i arrived at the restaurant and i put my bike to this bench kind of thing.. at least i always sit on it, i guess its not made for that. but i dont really care. i walked in.. and barged right into the little office in the kitchen, not even bothered to look if there was anyone besides my parents...
I dropped everything on the bright yellow couch.. as my phone fell on the ground.. "Fuck" I hissed. The screen is cracked further than it was before.. well god damn it, Me and my amazing luck. I heard a low laugh from the bar. I thought it was just my mom's boyfriend..
"Hey, you alright?" A familiar voice said. I turned around with a cherry Red blush on my cheeks, because I knew exactly who was behind me. "H-hi, yeah I'm fine." I stuttered. He grinned evily as he said " let me help you with that". "Uhm, no thanks. I can do this." I shot him a glare.
Why do I always do this. Why do I always shut people out. "Because that's what you do Kassie. It's the only way you know. You stupid bitch" the voice in my head sounded..
But Caleb didn't give up. He stubbornly grabbed the books that fell out of my bag.
Oh shit.. my little box with my razors...
I looked around a bit, trying to do that as invisible as possible.. but offcourse he noticed. "What are you looking for?" He asked me. "Uhm just a little pink box with a flower on it." I blushed and looked away. ''ooooeehhh a box, whats in it?'' he asked me with his bright curious hazel eyes. ''thats not important. just find it.'' i snapped at him. he looked at me a little taken aback. as soon as i said it like that i felt sorry, and regretted every word i said to him in that tone. but i didnt show it, because its for his own good to not know me. at least not as a friend. because he doesnt need someone like me in his life.
his head dipped low and he walked back into the restaurant, and before he went trought the doors he caughed once and held his head high shook his shoulders a bit and had this big smile on his face.
you see Kassie, its just pretend. he doesnt give a shit. dont bother him with your crap load of shit, he doesnt need it. he doesnt need you. NOBODY NEEDS YOU. youre a miserable person. you only make it harder for everyone.
i shook my head, grabbed my jacket. as i saw my phone restarted i saw we were an hour further since i came here. i turned around to walk back and say my parents goodbye. and give my mom that note offcourse. as soon as i wanted to grab my bag and walk over there i saw my box was next to my bag. i opened it after i checked no one could see me. everything was still in it, thank goodness. i also knew n one opened it because i always how i put the ribbon on it.. and its pretty hard to do that exactly thesame way. i stuffed the box where i always put it. and walked over to mom with the note. i noticed he was gone. my head dipped low and there was a slight peace of dissapointment in my eyes, i handed it to her and we said our goodbyes.
the fresh cold winter breeze hit my face. i shivered. i looked around at all the lights because it was pretty dark. i looked over to the closest lantern, i saw i tall figure underneath it. the person turned around and looked me right in the eyes. it was like he looked right trough me. i shivered again, but this time it wasnt because i was cold. but because he looked straight into my soul. his eyes widened, the left corner of his mouth twitched up a little which caused a tiny dimple in his cheek. i looked down and blushed because i was overwhelmed that he actually smiled because of my appearence. he is just trying to be nice... dont get over your own head.
i looked away from his gaze, grabbed my bike and drove off, i saw him mouth something like ''bye Kassie''. and he looked down.
~ the next day ~
my phone buzzed on the table, i looked at my screen that displayed the caller id of my mom. i sighed a little and picked up. ''hi mom, whats up'' i closed my eyes. ''hey Kassie'' she said with a stressed out voice. ''can you come over as soon as possible'' she rushed trough her words. ''but mom i have two hours left to-'' she interrupted me. ''i know baby, but i really need your help. a group of 30 people just walked in and i have no one to do the dishes and there are so impatient. please Kassie help me out this time'' she almost cried. '' its okay mom, ill leave right now, but if you want me to be there so soon, please let me put on my jacket with two hands and stop raddling trough your words?'' i smiled a little. ''omg Kassie youre an angel. now get over here.'' '' yes mom, bye now'' ''bye''.
i grabbed my bag and rushed over to the restaurant, locked my bike as soon as i could and dropped my bike. i had a hard time going trough the kitchen because there were people everywhere.. how nice.
i dropped my bag, got out of my jacket and threw it over some chair. i took off my shirt without caring who could see me, and put on the shirt i was supposed to wear. one shitty thing, it isnt a longsleeve shirt. but no one cared enough to see anyways. i put my pillarbox red hair up in a ponytail, and started doing the dishes that were everywhere. and everything was so disgusting.
''already here huh?'' i heard Caleb say. i turned my head with my eyes widened and my mouth parted. ''what are you doing here?'' i mumbled. ''uhm working? not a very nice welcome you know?'' he grinned. i shot him a glare and went on with washing all of the plates. i didnt really talk to anyone that night. just my mom who said i needed to hurry and then i would just curse something under my breath and hear a slight snorting noice from the cooking area in the kitchen.
after alot of people had left i sat down on the dirty floor. and grabbed the drink, where someone made sure of i had enough. because it was constantly filled with lemonade. i smiled a little a the thought of that.
''you gotta make sure you keep hydrated, its important.'' Caleb said from behind me. ''yeah, i was kinda busy the whole time'' i looked up at him. he stood in front of me. he looked down at me and seemed to be lost in his own mind. all i did was sigh and focussed on my drink that i needed badly. i took another big sip. and to my own amazement there came a burp after. Caleb looked at me with big eyes and started to laugh. my face became a tomato and i stood up really quick, and walked out of the kitchen. hearing Caleb still laughing really hard behind me. ''hey mom, can i have some food.. i havent eaten since like 8 hours ago. i am kinda hungry now'' i asked her biting my lip. ''uhm yeah sure, there are some leftovers in the kitchen'' she answered back fast.
i walked back into the kitchen and Caleb calmed down from his burst of laughter. ''uhm hey Caleb, can i ask you something?'' i looked at him and bit my lip again. his hazel eyes went dark and he said yes in a low growl. i was afraid to still ask my question. '' do you know where the leftovers are?'' i looked at him and skratched the back of my head a bit. ''uhm no i threw them away, why?'' he asked unknowingly. ''well, i have to eat, because the last time i ate today was like 8 hours ago. he looked mad at me. ''you really have to eat Kassie! you take bad care of yourself.'' he said to me in an angry dominant voice. ''im sorry'' was all i could bring out, because tears were about to stream down my face. i looked down because i didnt want him to see me weak. ''its fine, ill make you something'' he said softly. ''thanks, but you dont have to'' i said to him and wanted to get up and grabb my stuff to go home, because i was really tired. '' Kassie no, youre not going out of this place before you ate something. i dont care what i have to make for you, just tell me what you want to eat.'' he said sternly.
he made me a hamburger and gave me something more to drink. i smiled at him and mouthed '' thank you''. which he nodded at.
as i finished my food, i washed my plate dried it and put it on its place. i told mom that i was going home. we said our goodbyes and i walked towards the door, then i heard Caleb say: '' Kassie wait up!!'' i turned around. ''we can walk out togheter right?'' he asked me. i just nodded. we walked out of the door togheter. i grabbed my bike that was still on the ground. ''dont you have a car?'' caleb asked me. ''uhm no? im only sixteen you know..'' i said and blushed. for the first time Calebs face turned into a bright red colour. ''oh im sorry'' was all he said and he turned around. ''its okay'' i whispered as i saw him go away with his own bike..
we didnt speak for weeks after that.....
