Castle: A heavy heart✔️

Chapter 9 Thinking

Beckett- I woke up around 4 A.M and castle was still asleep, his head was laying on the bed and he was softly snoring. I decided not to wake him up, I mean how could I wake something that cute up. Instead I quietly called my dad to let him know I was ok, but I left out the detail about me being pregnant, honestly I didn't want anyone to know until I was completely sure the baby would be ok.
After I hung up with my dad I called Alexis, she had to be wondering what was going on. After a minute she picked up.

Alexis- "Kate, what's going on! Where's my dad and are you alright! What happened!

I could tell she was very worried, but I couldn't tell her about the baby.

Beckett-"Alexis every thing is fine, I just had to go to the hospital, I hit my head on a table but I will be fine. And your dad is here with me, sleeping like a baby."

Alexis- "ow, hey send me a picture of dad!"

I quickly took out the camera app and took a picture of castle sleeping and I think drooling, then sent it to Alexis.

Alexis-" ow wow he really is a cute sleeper."

Just then castle shot up from his sleep.

Castle-" wait, you took a picture of me and sent it to Alexis."

Beckett-"but you just looked so cute, ow and you have a bit of slobber on your cheek." I said laughing.

Alexis- "ok well you two call me later bye."
After Alexis hung up, I sat there laughing."this is so not funny Kate." I could tell he was a little angry so I decided to calm down. "Babe, it's not my fault your such a cute sleeper, I couldn't resist taking a photo." I said looking in his eyes. "Ok, but next time, I'm taking the picture of you without telling you." He was smiling, and I just wanted to kiss him, but instead I took him into a warm hug.

"Castle what am I going to do?"
"What do you mean what are you going to do." I could tell he was a little confused but also a little worried. "I'm pregnant and I'm in horrible shape, I haven't been eating, drinking or sleeping!" He then gave me a bit of an angry look. "How long has it been since you slept ?" "Well I guess ever since I left." I looked away from him knowing he would look sad and upset, and he had every reason to be. "Kate why haven't you been sleeping?" "Because I can't, it might sound really stupid but it's hard to sleep without you."  I could feel the blush spread to my cheeks. He picked up my chin and made it where I was looking right into his ocean blue eyes. "Kate, it's not stupid, it's hard for me to sleep without you to." A smile spread across my face and the blush deepened. I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, he kissed back but in a minute we had to pull away for air.
"You know I love you right."his eyes were looking right into my brown ones.
"How could I ever forget." I smiled and he smiled back, he bent down to peck my lips. I was kinda sad he didn't give me a real kiss but I will survive. I laid back onto the bed and wondered about the baby, the current question in my mind was if it was healthy, I know that Dr.Grey said it was fine but, what if it wasn't, what if it dies because of how I have been treating myself. Honestly, I never knew I was pregnant for sure, I knew I couldn't stand coffee but I never even thought I was pregnant! If this baby dies though, Rick will never forgive me, he will probably abandoned me and wish he never met me.
Before I could even notice it I was crying.
"Kate what's wrong!"
His gaze was now on me once again with his big blue concerned eyes.
"What if I lose it, what if I lose the baby?" My crying only got worse.
"Then we will try again when you are ready, Kate this isn't your fault, you just were depressed and that happens, it can't be controlled." He was looking right into my eyes now.
"Will you still love me."
I know I sound like a drama queen but it just came out.
"Kate, nothing in the hinter universe could make me stop loving you, I will love you forever and Always."