Freeing Myself

Journal Entry 5

I took a nice break from writing, thinking, and life. It's been really hard on me the last few days. I don't know where the depression came from, and i don't know how long it's going to last, but i'm fighting through it as best I can. I got to hang out with some of the most uplifting people i know. We did all kinds of stuff and laughed a lot more than I have in a while. Although today I'm drained and tired. I can't seem to sleep enough, and I barely ate.  I hate when I go through this. My depression is a functioning depression. I can push through it when other people are involved. I can smile, and laugh, and I can even get the brightness to reach my eyes. I learned well. Although, after everyone is gone and I'm back to being alone, I'm tired and sick, and quite often crying. It's the oddest thing. I'm trying really hard to push through it though. I'm staying connected to people instead of isolating. So that's a big improvement from where I was. Instead of not doing anything and not talking I spent a whole weekend surrounded by people. I was only alone once. I'm trying. I just hope soon it ends up being enough.