Darkened Hearts (A Creepypasta FanFiction)

An Explaination (of sorts) For Why I Hasn't UpdatedUntitled part

Okay, I thought to myself; "Hey, why don't I explain why I haven't be updating as much as I did when I first began writing on here (almost a year ago)! I mean, Izzy did it so I should probs explain myself, too, before the pitch forks and torches arrive." So yeah, here goes nothing, I suppose.... Also, I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR ATTENTION.... My Lord!!!

~~~Major Language Warning~~~

~~~Seriously, I'm not holding back...~~~

~~~Okay, if you're still here, you must be hardcore AF.... Let's continue.~~~

I will cut right to the chase. I am walking on a very thin line right now. Thinner than what I've ever "walked" before. Some of you guys may or may not know this, but I am depressed. I don't need a doctor to tell me, to explain to me why I have been acting the way I have. I already know. I have probably, out of my friends, to be the last one you'd ever suspect to be depressed. Before you say I just want attention, shut up and let me finish, okay??? Damn.

Anyways, the point is, I try to be strong for others. I try and I fail. Meh. Let's keep moving forward, shall we? Okay, so last year, I lost one of my favorite people--the woman who practically raised me when I was little. My Nana. After losing her, I almost lost it and I fell deeper in my depression than I already was. Alright, if I had never met my Nana, I would not be the same person. I more-than-likely would hate art. My Nana was probably the reason I am who I am today.

Anyways, I've always been depressed and always have had a fucked-up mind. I also found out recently that it's very possible that I could be schizophrenic or bi-polar (I've gotten remarks from people telling me I've been acting strange/very bi-polar/crazy/insane...). If that's true, then it explains a lot, I suppose. Anyways, I've been under a LOT of stress lately. My grades are going down the rabbit hole. Let me rephrase that. My grades are slipping. My mom is telling me to get my grades up constantly, making me feel very useless. Doesn't she realize CONSTANTLY telling me and telling me and telling me over and over is just ADDING to my stress???

Not only is all of THAT adding to my stress, but my life in general is going south! There are many times a day when I feel like I could just break down. But no, I just wait until I'm at home and break down and make me family think I have issues (which I most likely DO). My parents have been fighting a bit recently. Nothing violent, but just frequently that I stay awake thinking about it. To be honest, I sometimes feel like my friends secretly hate me and are just waiting for me to leave them alone. Alright, I feel like this is turning into a "Draw My Life" thingy. Anyways, I feel so horrible right now.

I will still update, don't worry, but they will more than likely be shorter than normal, but if I update anything, it will probs be DH, because the last chapter will take a while... So... I love you guys and I am thankful to have a kind and wonderful (and funny AF) community like you guys! I guess I'll see you guys around...

~~~SarahTS