Last night had honestly been one of the best nights of my year so far. I was great to just hang out with Peyton and Reagan and not have to worry about cheer if only for a night. We talked about normal girl things like the boys we were crushing on and when it was my turn, I just blurted out how I had a massive crush on Matt and had since 2011. The girls surprisingly didn’t look as shocked as I thought they would, with Peyton already knowing Reagan just looked at me and said “You’re a better match for him than Carly, he just hasn’t realised that yet”.
I hoped he’d realised that, but in the end I realised I didn’t want to stop Matt from being happy, but I also wanted him to know how I felt about him. Why is all of this so complicated I asked to nobody in particular? By the time I’d asked that both the girls had fallen asleep so I figured I’d text Kelcie who happened to understand just what I was going through. She asked me to call her in the morning and I figured that’s better than nothing right?
So back to this morning. The girls and I had an amazing breakfast made by my loving brother, who happened to be an amazing cook, nearly as good as my dad. As soon as we had finished we were of to CA for another 5 hour practice which would mean being stuck in a hot, stuffy gym where boys would most likely take their shirts which would mean Matt was topless. Yummy…
On the way, I got a call from Kelcie and I decided that now is a better time than never. “KELCIE OMG THANK GOD YOU CALLED I NEED YOUR HELP” “Okay baby girl just calm down and tell me about Matt” “Wait how did you know I was going to talk about Matt” “You’ve called me about him before, and we always talk about our boy troubles” After a 30 minute talk about our problem I decided that I was going to tell Matt, I didn’t care if he took it well or terribly, he needed to know how I felt. I saw Matt over the other side of the mat talking to Ryan and Colton, I was about to walk over to them when I felt myself be pulled to the side.
“Don’t even think about it Jamie” I turned around to see Carly staring at me like she was going to murder me “What are you talking about Carly” “I know you like Matt, and I want you to stay away from him!” “Carly that isn’t going to happen, I’ve known Matt for years and he’s in my stunt group for god sake”. “I don’t care what he is JAMIE, KEEP AWAY FROM HIM AND STOP BEING SUCH A SLUT”. Everyone in the whole gym turned to look at us when Carly said that including Matt looking really curious … “OMG Jamie I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to say, I was just so angry and please Jamie I’m sorry” “You no what Carly, I don’t care what you think, I don’t want your pathetic apology, just let me do what I want to do” “You realise he’ll never love you like he loves me right, your nothing to him” “Says the one who just called another girl a slut, for doing nothing, good bye Carly”
I went to place my bag in the lockers when matt wrapped his arms around my waist. I wanted to melt into his arms and enjoy it but I had to try and focus on everything else, like cheer. I turned around in his arms and gave him a smirk, saying “Since when did people that weren’t friends hug Matt?” “ Come on Jamers give it up, you know that you can’t not be friends with me, I’m your favourite”” Well am I your favourite Matty”” Forever and Always Jamers, but that instagram post I take that back, I was angry y’know” “ Yes I do know because I was being rude and I’m sorry Matty” I actually missed him so much, as I wrap my arms around his waist I feel his arms tighten around mine and he places a kiss on my head while telling me that I’m not a slut and Carly was way out of line. I take a deep breath as I prepare for what to say “Matt I need to tell you something, when I say this I don’t want you to hate me okay?” “Jamie I could never hate you, what’s wrong?” “I-I-“as soon as I’m about to speak I get interrupted by Joe yelling “GUYS PRACTICE IS STARTING”
Matt looks down on me and says “later okay?” “Sure Matt” I say smiling then walking hand in hand with Matt as we join the rest of the team on the mat. We start stretching at chatting like we used, which I really missed. But there was a part of me wishing for something more but I knew that there was a slight chance of that. We started the whole routine from the top and everyone was hitting there stunts and pyramid which made me feel really happy, as I was hoping we wouldn’t have any falls.
During lunch break, I spent it going over homework and texting Kelcie. She thought It was a good idea to tell Matt about how I felt, but when I told her about Carly she said there wasn’t much you could do about that, you just needed to ignore her which I would try to do. God, I missed Kelcie, I wish she would just come to Texas it was summer time anyway.
After completing my Maths homework, I see Matt come up to me. “Hey Matty” “Jamie are you going to tell me now” “Don’t say I didn’t warn you Matt okay…. I-I really like you, and not in a friend way”…. Matt didn’t say anything, so I took the silence as rejection. “I’m sorry Matt, I’ll just go now”
“WAIT JAMIE”
Hear you go everybody ;) xx
