Dreams Come True (Austin Carlile/Ben Bruce)

Chapter 30

I woke up at eight, before anyone else. I grabbed a pack of cigarettes and a pair of purple shorts, I slid into the shorts and quickly scribbled a little note. "Getting my haircut, been meaning to, be back before ten."

I stepped out of the bus, slipped a cigarette in my mouth, and went over to the dressers bus. I had made some friends there, I've been making a promise to myself to get a haircut, a shaggy pixie haircut. I went in and thirty minutes later I came out, my hair swished. I had Justin Bieber hair, but I pulled it off much better. I headed back to the bus again. Ben was out smoking, and I had just lit another cigarette.

"I expected it to not be so short, but it fits you." He examined me, "Is your hair blue?"

I bit my lip, nodding, "you like it right?"

"Baby, it's amazing. Gives you that full rocker look, messy and fun. Now you aren't all girly." He wrapped his arm around my waist. "You look fantastic."

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The day went on and I hoped for a text from Austin, but it never came.

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We traveled for a month in Germany, Belgium, and Luxembourg. For another month we were in Norway, Denmark, Sweden, and Finland. We were in England for half a month, where I met Danny's family, and Ben's family. Then we went to Italy, after two weeks we finally made it to Rome. I was so excited to finally meet Copeland and Katelyn. Three months had passed and I still hadn't gotten a text from Austin. Emily had assured me that Alan had spoken to him, and was slowly convincing him to speak to me.

I sat on the edge of a fountain, flipping through photos I had taken on throughout this amazing journey. I teared up at photos of me and Austin, happy, seemingly carefree.

"Hello beautiful." I looked up to see a smiling Ben holding out a cigarette while smoking one himself.

I gladly accepted, scooting to make room for him to sit with me. I felt so happy with Ben, if I wasn't constantly seeing Austin, I could honestly be over him and completely with Ben. The worst part was that Ben knew this, and still he put all he could in this relationship. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"Hey handsome." I smile as he kisses my forehead. "Kellin's gone to the airport to pick up Katelyn and Copeland, So we're supposed to meet them at a small restaurant for dinner at six." I informed him.

"Should I dress nice?" He inquired, laughing a little.

"I know you have a button up shirt, so that'll have to do. I'm going to be wearing my Darth Vader dress." I put my arm through his. "We have to go back to the bus to get ready." We started walking back to the bus.

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I stepped out of the restroom, my dress was tight, and you could see my owl tattoo peek from underneath it. My slightly wavy blue hair hung down, I had let it grow out, still keeping it fully blue. I had bright red lipstick on, and simple black eyeliner. I kept simple with black flats on.

Ben came up to me wearing a black button up shirt, black skinny jeans, and a soft metallic grey vest. His hair was messy, as usual, but seemed to be an arranged mess, not just a "wake up and go" mess. He put in matching silver rings for his snake bites, which matched my silver septum piercing and angel bite studs.

He pulled me into him, he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck. I giggled, biting my lip, "we'll never get to dinner if you continue this."

He squeezed my hips, "Good, I don't want to go to dinner anyway." He kissed me softly on the lips, caring and passionately, and just like always the kiss brought sparks and fireworks. I released with a gasp for air, not from lack of oxygen, but more from the want of more. "Randi, if our connection is so obvious..." Ben started but stopped before the end.

I knew exactly where he was going, every time we were alone he'd try to understand why I wasn't fully in our relationship. He's never put so much effort into a relationship and the one he had, I'm not doing the same for him. I had been working on it though. I wanted to completely rid myself of Austin and indulge myself in Ben.

There was a ping from my phone.

From Emily: ~What are you doing tonight? :/~

I responded quickly. To Emily: ~Dinner with Quinn, wife & daughter. What's wrong?~

Within thirty seconds I got a reply.

From Emily: ~Same. That's what's wrong. Kellin invited Alan, Austin, and myself. Be prepared. Is Ben coming?~

To Emily: ~Yeah, Kellin asked for us both~

From Emily: ~Alright, sit beside me. Austin is bringing Ella. Best of luck. See you soon.~

I took a deep breath, this was a test to see if I can fully be with Ben. I prayed to pass it. "Babe?"

"Yeah." We held hands as we waited for our taxi to come for us.

"Austin is going to be there." I said a bit speedy, "Kellin asked him and Ella to join."

He nodded, "Well... it really comes down to who you want more. I won't die if you choose him."

I could hear the lie in the words. I also knew that no matter who I chose the other would linger for a long time. I knew Ben was the right choice... I knew Ben was good for me... and still I was a bitch and leaned toward Austin. I needed get my shit together and focus on Ben. "I choose you." I kissed him, he picked me up and spun me around, then while still carrying me he headed to the taxi that had just arrived.

We got out at the small restaurant, holding hands and laughing at the small jokes the driver had mentioned; after paying him, we walked into the restaurant.