Publicity

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Dearest readers

Honestly, you can skip this to read the next chapter; I just need to get this out.

First of all, this is unusual for me to be writing an author's note that is all about myself and not starting with 'Hi, sorry for the late update.' I actually didn't want to post this in a chapter titled 'Author's Note' or just anything else that is in a separate chapter, I actually wanted to save the end of this a/n for the end of the chapter like I usually did but after some consideration I decided that it would distract you from the story's ending, therefore this note is written in the beginning of this chapter so when you're done with it you can get on with the story. I just didn't want to scare any of you like this is something so important and alarming.

In a way this is important and alarming, being me I'd like to take the piss out as much as I can, but don't worry it has nothing to do with the story nor will it affect anything, I just want you guys to be aware of my situation.

You really don't know how important you guys are to me and how special writing is, how much it helps. There are points in my life where I thought that I couldn't continue it, you guys probably never thought of this since I've never ever mentioned it, and I didn't want to because of so many reasons; I didn't want many people to worry and I don't want it to be misinterpreted as attention seeking, that's probably the two biggest reasons why I've never come out about it to anyone, really.

Recently I have had a few breakdowns and a lot of anxiety to deal, please don't worry so much about this I just want to keep you guys aware that I have a few issues that's all. Those breakdowns drove me into writing this.

Having readers and writing fanfictions-even though a lot of people see it as childish to be writing about their idols-helps a lot. Like a lot. Having something to continue day by day and having people to entertain are what keeps me here. I have a lot of people and things to thank for my being here still, like my idols and friends and family, but in my darkest points I couldn't think about them, I thought that it's okay to leave them.

I could bear the thought of leaving Miley or my family and having to miss whatever comes into the future that I won't get to see if I stopped holding on, except this. I can't bear leaving this. I have to finish this and not let any of you down, you guys tell me a lot that I have a gift and talent, I tell you that I do all of this for you. I really do. Having something to hold on in this world is what keeps people from disappearing, I hold on to my unfinished stories and my beautiful angelic readers.

That's how important you guys are to me and how important finishing my stories for you to read and adore is to me. This is my reason to live. I always always promise myself that I will finish Publicity and satisfy you when I do, I want to see your reaction when I wrote my last few paragraphs and close it with 'the end', my goal each day is to write as good as I can in hope of getting returned with a couple of reads and votes and comments, to my surprise I get more than I hoped for. That is truly the most beautiful thing I've ever received...all this love, all this support.

I always promise myself that I will finish my stories; I will make you guys happy, I will make it through and I will be okay. In my recent days where I mentioned I have some breakdowns I was so scared that I might not be able to hold on, I thought that my next story update would be apologizing for not being able to continue this story, but I did and I pulled through and here I am doing my best to keep you entertained.

You guys are the light of my life, you guys are so important so very important. I owe my life to you in a way; you are by far the brightest stars in my life. I'm so grateful for every one of you, I could never thank you enough, I show you guys how much I love you and how grateful I am for having you in every chapter, every word. My xoxo's in the end of every chapter aren't just a signature thing, it might not seem much but I assure you they mean as much as every 'thank you'.