Publicity

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Nick's POV

It was really hard for me to accept that she had walked away, and I was still trying to cope, but a huge part of me doesn't want to cope, instead it keeps telling myself to think of ways to get her back.

I really don't want to live without her.

"Cory," I said, trying to get his attention, it was really late and everyone was leaving, we were the only ones left in the studio.

"Yes?"

I was quiet at first "Can we talk?"

"Speak, champ." He said.

"Will you listen?"

"I'm listening."

"Can you look at me at least?" I said a little annoyed, he finally turned and gave me a look "Yes?"

"Is there any way...any way at all me and Miley--"

"Oh, for christ's sake," He mumbled, cutting me off "Nick...I thought we talked about this. It's too much of a risk if you're gonna go public again."

"Isn't there anyway?"

"Jesus, why does it matter?"

"It matters because she broke up with me!" I exclaimed angrily "Because she doesn't want us to hide...Because it hurts her...so she'd rather not be with me at all,"

Cory shook his head "Nick, I really can't help you, okay? All the publicist thinks that it would be a bad idea...You know how important your image for your career is,"

"Fuck that," I mumbled "I don't fucking care anymore Cory..."

"So you're gonna chose her over your career? Is that what you're telling me?!"

"I'm going crazy without her Cory!" I said.

"You literally hated her two days ago now you're willing to give up everything for her?! You've worked so hard, you did everything for this moment...suddenly a girl comes into your life and says she doesn't want to be with you if you guys aren't going public?!"

"She's had enough of all of you pushing us; telling us what to do!"

"You know what I think? I think she's just selfish! She's basically asking you to chose between her and your job!"

"Olivia wanted the same thing," I thought out loud "Now I think maybe my job is the problem, Cory! I keep losing the women I love because of this shit! You, my team, everyone keeps pushing me around!"

"Oh, you're blaming me now?!"

"I lost Olivia, and I lost Miley too because of my career!"

"It's not my fault you have to work so fucking hard to survive in this business! It is hard Nick, not many people are born with the lifetime relevance; the grace that allows them to be famous for the rest of their lives without having to work so hard for it! You are not those kinds of people, you need to always put your career first in order to survive!"

"That doesn't matter--"

"Of course it fucking matters! Pull your head out of your ass for one second and think about the most important thing in your life!"

"Miley's important to me!" I raised my voice "And you know what? I just realized that I'm done, I'm tired of always getting pushed around and not getting to do what I want...so fuck that! Let everyone think I'm dating her just for publicity because I'm releasing an album, I'd rather have her in my life over everything,"

"Nick, wait!" Cory said as he pulled me back, I was just about to leave "Are you really about to give up everything just for a girl? A girl who, may I remind you, lied to you and hurt you so bad?!"