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READ THIS NOTE. I DON'T ASK MUCH. PLEASE READ THIS.

I know at least one of you feels depressed. Sees no point in moving, reading, talking, living, breathing. I know how you feel, and I'm not going to tell you tomorrow you're going to wake up and feel perfectly better. Tomorrow you'll finally be happy. Honestly, it might not be tomorrow. Hell, it might not be until next year. 

But remember your lil brother/sister/cousin/etc who asked you that question that sent tingles up your arms? 

Imagine one day, he/she is covering her arms. They can't bare anyone to see their horrible memories.

There might not be a lot of light in this world, but darling I can assure you that you are the brightest of them all. You might say no, I'm wrong, but someone loves you. Whether it be me or your family. Even though they say the meanest of things without realizing, remember I love you even if you don't think so. I LOVE YOU.

You have so much more purpose in the world.

Additionally, think before. Think about telling the person you love. The kids see and ask what are they? You take a road trip with your  year old cousin, and it's July and you can't possibly wear long sleeves, and you sit by him and he looks at your arms and he asks "Whats on your arms?" He doesn't even know what scars are! He has no idea. And one day he's going to know and knowing your cousin did it, it makes him think it helps and he can do it too.

Please. Take my words wisely. Nothing feels worse than admitting to your mom you used to hurt yourself. Nothing hurts worse than telling her you feel so miniscule and worthless, the world is better off without you. Nothing is worse than admitting how bad you feel. My message box is always open. 

Also, there are people trained to help you in this exact situation.

Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline 

Phone: 800-4-A-CHILD (800-422-4453) Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance  Phone: 800-826-3632 Boys Town National Hotline  – Crisis hotline that helps parents and children cope with stress and anxiety

Phone: 800-448-3000 Hopeline 

Phone: 800-442-HOPE (4673) Mental Health America  – For a referral to specific mental health service or support program in your community

Phone: 800-969-NMHA (6642) National Alliance on Mental Illness  – Provides support, information, and referrals

Phone: 800-950-NAMI (6264) National Association of Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders 

Phone: 847-831-3438 National Center for Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

Phone: 802-296-6300 National Center for Victims of Crime  – Multi-language service available

Phone: 800-FYI-CALL (394-2255) National Drug and Alcohol Treatment Hotline – Treatment referrals

Phone: 800-662-HELP (4357) National Domestic Violence Hotline 

Phone: 800-799-SAFE (7233) National Eating Disorders Association Information and Referral Helpline  – Support services, help, and guidance to people struggling with eating disorders, their loved ones, and families

Phone: 800-931-2237 National Domestic Violence Hotline 

Phone: 800-799-SAFE (7233) National Runaway Switchboard 

Phone: 800-RUNAWAY (800-786-2929) National Sexual Assault Hotline 

Phone: 800-656-HOPE (4673) National Suicide Prevention Hotline 

Phone: 800-273-TALK (8255) Postpartum Support International 

Phone: 800-994-4PPD (4773) PPD Hope 

Phone: 877-PPD-HOPE (877-773-4673) PPD Moms 

Phone: 800-PPD-MOMS (800-773-6667) S.A.F.E. Alternatives 

Phone: 800-DONTCUT (800-366-8288)

I PROMISE YOU WITH EVERYTHING IN MY HEART THAT ONE DAY EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER. ALWAYS REMEMBER CONTACT ME OR ONE OF THE HOTLINES ABOVE. 

Even if you just feel so pressured everything is sooooo hard, message me. I don't want any of my latex heads (fans) to hurt themselves.

And to be honest idc how mean this is if your going to comment something fucking stupid just go fuck yourself before I kick your ass. This is serious and your fucking immature and you need to get the beads out of your ass hole you left there last night fucking ignorant dick.