I looked down and saw Alfie grab onto the latter. I scootched over in the doorway and he sat down beside me. I tensed up as Alfie looked off at the sky as well.
"It's getting pretty late eh?" Alfie asked, I could feel his gaze but I didn't have the balls to meet it.
"Yeah, looks like the suns about to set." I replied, looking down at the ground.
"You don't have to think of ways out of this I just want to watch the sunset and talk." Alfie mumbled, as I met his gaze.
"What do you want from me?" I asked, my stomach twisting into knots.
"Joe, I'm sorry."
That very moment I considered jumping out and hurting to myself. I couldn't help but be shocked. He's done so much shit to me. Now Mr. Alfie Deyes wants to apologize to me? I must be out of my mind.
"Alfie, you've got to be doing this as a joke mate." I laughed nervously and Alfie frowned.
"Listen, I love Zoe with all my heart. I never knew how much she liked you and I figured if I let everyone tease you it'd be okay. It made Zoe really upset and I thought I was going to loose her. But I didn't. I couldn't be more sorry. I don't know why after you came out it seemed like the perfect opportunity to make you feel bad and leave Zo and I alone to do our thing.." Alfie stopped and took a deep breath.
I let him have his moment. I needed to take all of this in. With jumping out on my mind and Alfie's love for my sister and not for me. I still think he knows exactly why he picked that time to make fun of me. It was bad enough my parents were hating me for my sexuality. I thought that Zoe's friends were my friends. I'm always wrong about simple things. I should have only told Zoe. Why did I mess up my chance at having friends? Now I'm stuck having a crush on that douche of a blonde Caspar Lee.
"I never wanted you to join our friend circle. I was glad with what I had and I didn't want it change. Marcus, Jim and Tan didn't want it either. Caspar wanted you to join us. He always liked the idea of having another person in the group. Besides he felt like there needed to be another person. As if we weren't enough for him. After Caspar came out to me I was shocked. Thats when I figured out why he wanted you in the friend circle. I just made him be mean to you anyway because I still didn't like the idea of being friends with you while dating Zoe." I watched a tear roll down Alfie's cheek as the sky went from a blue to a light orange and a pastel pink.
"So you're saying Caspar has a crush on me?" I asked, completely in shock. There's no way someone I like could like me back.
"That's what I'm saying. Now Caspar doesn't know how to portray his feelings because I've made him be a asshole to you. Now all Caspar can do is make you cry and then deal with himself later. I've told Caspar to stop... You know, hurting himself. He said he can't stop until you love him back. I don't want to force you into a decision but, do you have any feelings for Casp? Any at all?" Alfies words made me burst into tears. He wrapped his arms around me.
As the sun started to go down and the sky went dark, Alfie crawled out of the treehouse.
"Please tell me if you like Caspar so I can go check on Zoe?"
I stared at him angrily. Did he really just stop caring about Caspar because of my sister? It made me want to cry. The only option I had was to be honest. I don't trust Alfie. It's like a game and I'd rather keep to myself.
"Hurry up Joe! Zoe probably made Caspar so upset he's cutting as we speak!"
"I love Caspar." I stated wanting him to piss off. Alfie crawled down and I watched him walk into the house.
"If you want to blame Caspar's depression on Zoe that's fine."
