Everyone came sitting down and pushing me off the couch. I tried not to groan of frustration. I went out to the back porch and sat down. I thought of were else I could go. Then I remembered the basement. I forget what it looked like and what was down there but, they know about the porch and I'd prefer they didn't know where I was. I got up and turned around to see Zoe.
"Hi." I smiled as she looked at me expressionless. "Zoe?"
"They told me to do this Joe. I'm sorry." Zoe mumbled, grabbing my hand.
"Zoe! What are you doing?"
She pulled open the basement door and threw me down there. She closed the door and that's when I remembered the basement. It was dark and smelled rank. Not to mention the fact I was claustrophobic. I began pushing on the wall and crying. I started to hear voices and I pushed my ear to the door.
"I can't do this to him!" I heard Zoe exclaimed. I could tell she was crying and I only cried harder.
"I told you he can't come until he says what happened between him and Casp." Marcus explained, making me furious.
"Zoe!" I called, wiping my eyes.
"Please let me help him Marcus." Zoe pleaded making my heart hurt.
"MARCUS!" I screamed pounding on the door.
"Are you going to speak up?" he asked, making me groan.
"I was upset okay? I cried and Caspar comforted me. He was just being nice to me. Okay? Are you fucking happy? I'm about to freak out Marcus!" I pounded on the door as he opened it. It took everything in me not to smack him.
"I can't believe you Marcus!" I yelled as Caspar came into the room.
"So you comforted Joe this morning? You're such a sweetheart." he squeezed Caspar's cheeks but I could tell he was irritated. Caspar grabbed my hand and pulled me into the room next door closing the door but, not locking it. Dumb move on his part.
"What the hell?" Caspar mumbled, giving me a angry look.
"I switched our roles okay? You can play the role of the bullied kid who's done with everyone, just be a love sick little boy who wants to be like his sister. I'd love for you to take my role."
Caspar gave me a shocked expression and brought his face closer to mine. I felt my legs turn to jelly as he smiled at me.
"Who are you love sick over Mr. Sugg?" he asked.
"Well, I have to go talk to Zoe." I sighed using a immediate excuse.
"You're not going anywhere." Caspar smirked, making me a little uncomfortable.
"Please just let me go Caspar. I'm not in the mood. I was just in a dark and rank basement." I pushed past him and he grabbed my hand.
"Please Joe, just talk to me. We're friends." Caspar sighed, giving me a forced smile.
"If I said Marcus would you believe me?" I asked, trying to get out of this mess.
"Please?" he whined making me fold me arms.
"You sound just like Marcus." I groaned, pulling my hand away from his.
"Joe... If you know I'm gay and you're gay why can't you talk to me? I totally understand what its like. To be love sick over someone you don't think will love you back. I was still a golden boy after I confessed my sexuality to my parents. Well, beside my dad. He's one of the biggest reasons I can't come out to everyone else. I was just surprised Alfie still likes me." Caspar frowned looking down at his shoes.
"Wait you're gay?" We turned around to see a shocked Jim.
"Jim please don't tell anyone. Alfie's the only one to know. You're the only two that need to know. Just don't tell anyone." Caspar begged even getting down on his knees. Jim ran off as tears streamed down Caspar's face.
I reached my hand out to help him up and he just pulled me down. He looked at me sadly and I wrapped him into a hug just like I had earlier. Caspar sobbed as I got butterflies in my stomach. Everyone came running in and Alfie came right down beside us. I looked over my shoulder to see everyone staring at Caspar and I. Jim had no right to run off and tell every person in the house. Thats not what Casp wanted. I don't want him to be in my place.
"Whatever you do don't hate him. You can take out all your hate on me. Just like you did after I thought and cried for a night because of the reactions I'd gotten before you. I don't want Caspar to be in my shoes. So just go twice as hard on me." I right away thought someone was going to hit me but, no one did.
"Mate we're not going to beat up Caspar." Tanya laughed at me and then stopped once she say the state Caspar was in.
"Zoe why don't you talk to him for a minute? You've always been a great advice giver." Marcus asked, pulling me away from Caspar.
"I'm leaving it up to Caspar." Zoe stated, crouching down were I was.
"Can we talk?" Caspar asked, not carrying that I wasn't there. He wanted me there and now he wanted me to fuck off.
Marcus dragged me out of the room and I felt tears in my eyes.
"Good going Joe. No one wanta you hear not even Zoe! She's so disgusted that you're related to her that she cried. Runaway Joe and never come back! It'd be doing Zoe and Caspar a favor." Jim spat as Tanya clung onto his arm. I began to cry as I ran out the front door and into the woods.
"If they have to make me leave for the last day of Zoe's holiday to be the best that's fine."
