I am alive
So very alive
Aware
That I am in deep shit
It was a mistake, okay? I just thought that it would be a light-hearted risk, a thrill, something to know. Not another thing to worry about, but I guess some people are really shitty at replying. And those people should take other's feelings and thoughts into consideration because that's just fucking rude.
Or maybe she didn't want to text me. Maybe she thinks texting is not very personal and mechanical, and wants everything to be natural and normal. Or maybe it just didn't send through, that's happened before.
Or she's just thinking about it, and taking her damn sweet time thinking about it. Or it's a no. Nah, I know her enough to know something was up waaay before I gave it to her. It wasn't a platonic thing that was up, either. So it's most likely a yes.
Or maybe she's conflicted. Maybe she doesn't want it right now. I understand, but I want her to fucking talk to me oh my god.
Or maybe she's laughing her ass off 'cause I gave her a fucking haiku. Maybe she read it to her friends.
No, that's unlikely too. She seems to emotionally detached for that kind of openness.
Ugh. Tomorrow is going to suck.
Tomorrow is going to really suck.
YOU ARE READING
constantly blooming.
Poetry'i will never stop blooming, like an eternal rose of flame... i may have my times of smolder and small sparks, but i will always become a huge inferno in the end... and nothing can stop me.' Collection of poetry and prose between the ages of 10-15...
