perfect imperfections of love

chapter 28

"You had me at my best, she had me at my worst. But you choose to break my heart..."

Wahhh.. Iyak ako ng iyak ngayon. Ilang libong beses ko na ba ito napanood pero bakit ganun paren ang impact sakin. Ang sakit! Feeling ko ako si basha. Wahhh...

Ang lupit palang mag mahal. Dapat you have to take the risk of loving... Dapat malakas at matapang ka... Para kapag andiyan na, ready ka na. Kaso ang love, parang earthquake din yan. Mahilig mag surprise. Kaya dapat prepared ka tulad ng mga habilin ng NDRMCC. Naku! The best talaga ang movie na to. Suubraaa.....

I wiped my tears habang sumisinghot. I look beside me. Aba! Sarap ng tulog. Buhusan ko kaya ito ng tubig? Ang ganda ng panood tapos tinulugan lang?

Siniko ko siya.

"Tapos na?" Tanong nito.

"Hoy ang ganda ng panood tapos tutulugan mo lang?" Nag kibit balikat ito.

"What do you like me to do? Cry like this...(make face) uhuhuhu...pwede tayo nalang ulit? Uhuhuhu"

Hinampas ko siya ng throw pillow.

"Ewan ko sayo! Don't you know that movie was the best. Sarap ng hatak niya. Every word every move. Tagos dito." Tinuro ko yung puso ko.

"That is what love can do...isang simbolo sina basha at popoy sa isang wagas na pagmamahalan." Dagdag ko.

Nakatingin siya sa akin ng malalim.

"Raine, will you be like Basha?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"Ahm nothing. I'm hungry. Tara kain na tayo sa labas."

After we eat eh hinatid niya na ako sa condo ko.

"I should go now." Sabi nito ng marating na namen ang pintuan.

"Okay!" Titig na titig siya sa akin.

"Oh anong tingin yan?"

Ahhh. Blue eyes.

"Pasok ka na."

Hinalikan ko siya sa pisngi. Siya naman ang nagulat.

"Bye!"

"Wait!"

"You do trust me right?" Anong sinasabi Neto? Tumango naman ako.

"Good!gotta go."

......

Andito ako ngayon sa isang business ball.

Wala akong escort!

I was invited by a business friend of mine. Maybe wala si kumag dito dahil di ito nag prisinta na maging escort ko. Well, that's okay. Baka busy masyado.

I roam around the hall. Chat with my clients and introduce my new resort at Batanes. Di rin pala sayang ang pag punta ko dito. Many are interested in my proposals. Nagpapabook na nga sila ng meetings sa amin. Hayy, ang ganda ko talaga teh! Haahhaha

"Hello there dear lady." Nakangiti si troy habang papalapit sa akin. I smiled. He looks dashing in his tuxedo. Pero teka, Kung nandito si Troy, it means nandito rin si kumag? May sinasabi pa siya pero napadako ang mata ko sa likod niya.

It was kumag talking sweetly with a beautiful lady. Humahagikgik pa yung babae habang may binubulong si Trent sa kanya. Why? I can't believe na nag papatawa siya sa isang babae. Where is his poker face aura? Asan na yung seryoso at parang pader na di magiba para lang ma pa smile siya? Siya ba talaga tong nakikita ko?

"Oh! Too bad. I don't think my brother will escort you tonight. That's Amanda. His ex-fiancee."

Napakurap ako. Para akong sinabugan ng bomba. Mas malakas pa sa plutonium na binagsak sa Japan. Hindi ito sinabi sakin ni Trent. Bakit? Kaya pala Hindi niya ako ininvite. Kaya pala di niya sinabe. Kaya pala......

"May we call miss Amanda Henares for a message." Palakpakan ang mga tao sa loob. Hinawakan pa ni kumag ang kamay ni Amanda bago ito binitawan. Sinundan pa niya ito ng tingin.

Tingin na akala mo ikaw lang ang nasa paligid.

Bat ganon? Why should I felt this way? Umalis ka na Aiza.

"I think she will introduce a business foundation for the out of school youth." Comment ni Troy.

"Thank you so much for coming tonight as we help each other build a foundation for the out of school youth to address the problems of society. Together with my special friend, Trent Alleje..."

What? So partners pa sila dito? Ang ganda ng ngiti ni kumag. I looked at Amanda while she talks. She has a serene beauty. Napaka amo tulad ng boses niya. Aminin ko man or hindi, bagay sila ni trent. At nasaksihan ko pa kung pano siya pasayahin ni trent. Why do I felt so insecure?

Bumaba si Amanda sa stage at inalalayan siya ni Trent. Ang sweet nilang tignan. Their smiles are real. They look like couples. Pictures were taken as they smile to clicking cameras.

I heard some comments. "I thought these two would be couples. Sad to say, Trent already had a girlfriend."

"Amanda was beautiful. Bagay sila!"

"Bakit kaya Hindi sila nag katuluyan? The business world was shocked when they broke up."

"Malay mo magkakatuluyan din ang mga yan."

Okay fine! So parang invisible lang ako dito ganon?

"This is what I'm telling you Aiza." Sabi ni Troy as he held my hands.

I know Trent saw me as our eyes met. Pero parang wala siyang nakita dahil umiwas ito ng tingin at nakangiting nakipagpicture ulit.

Agad akong bumitaw Kay troy at umalis sa venue...parang nakalimutan ko yung exit. Asan na ba? I need to get out.

I finally reached my car as uncontrolled tears escape through my eyes.

....
Fully booked ang schedule ko this week dahil tinanggap ko lahat ng mga clients na nais makipag transact sakin. I need to keep myself busy. Pero walang text si Trent.

"Mam aiza, about the inheritance of mam luning..." Kausap ko ngayon ang attorney ng namayapa kong Lola. He is discussing the amount I will receive if the terms and conditions will be met. Pero none of his words sinks in my brain.

"Mam are you OK? Do you need anything?" Biglang tanong ni attorney.

"Ah, go ahead attorney. I'm fine."

"...once you marry before you turn 28 next July, you will receive...."

Oo nga pala. 2 months from now, I will be 28 na. 2 months. Gusto ko ng matapos to. I should marry Trent before the deadline and get over with him. The sooner we marry the easier we part ways. Pain struck me. Ouch!

"I'll see to it that I will be able to marry before the deadline attorney."

Tumango naman ito at nag paalam na. I check my phone. No calls no text even a simple email from Trent.

I inhaled deeply as I answer the call of my friends. We're on Skype.

"Aiza, here are the sketch of the gown you wished earlier." Excited na pinakita ni Tine ang mga designs niyang wedding gown. Nasa Paris parin ito.

"I already have your wedding meal plan. You can check them later." Singit ni Annie.

"Yung mga invitations, tokens, themes inaayos ko pero syempre based from your preferences paren naman." Sabi ni Rhian.

Si rose naman ang sumingit. "Ako ng bahala sa pre-nuptial okay? Basta give me the themes."

Napatango lang ako.

"Bruha, bakit di ka excited Jan? Lapit na wedding mo oh." Tanong ni Rose.

"We can't imagine na ikaw pa talaga ang unang ikakasal sa ating Lima." Sigaw ni Rhian.

"Pagod lang ako mga bhes. I've got to go na. Thank you sa mga ginawa niyo. We'll have a private meeting nalang later.bye!"

"Wait!" sigaw nila but I closed my tablet. Tama! They don't need to know what's happening.