Her Royal Highness

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I'm now a wife for three weeks now. There were photoshoots, interviews and guestings about the honeymoon. My eyes should be twinkling with love. Many irritating things happen in interviews, the most annoying one was asking about babies. They were all; 'Oh, Princess, more time for each other than babies.' 'Princess Jamielle, what are your gender preferences on children?' 'Your Highness is very young for her marriage but babies could wait, right?' That was all I heard during the interviews. They were pressing on the baby matter or more on our personal lives rather than the more important subject matter. Well, that is how show business works.

        Right now, I'm in my study. James was sitting on one corner reading a book for a while now. He was arguing with the work he has to do. I kept on explaining to him that the work was all on me. He even branded himself a useless husband.

        He was demanding work but I have none to give him. I told him that he would have work when I ascend to the throne, but right now, I'm just plain old Crown Princess.

        I notice that James was staying here a little too long. "Hey, don't you have something to do?"

        He looked up at me and said, "Well, right now, I don't have anything to do. You won't even give me any work so, yeah, I'm useless."

        "Don't you have something to attend to? I notice that you kept on glancing at me when it was not necessary, you're freaking me out."

        "I don't have anything to attend to. I kept on glancing at you because you might need my help?"

        "Uh... I don't need help right now. You're disturbing me, off you go."

        He rolled his eyes. "I won't go anywhere."

         "Uh... you have to. Cindy, perhaps?"

        When I muttered Cindy's name, a person crashed into my study. It was the Princess Blabbermouth. I noticed that she was more silent when we arrived from the honeymoon. When James gave her the bracelet he bought in Santorini, she seemed unhappy with it. She just pressed her lips and then gave a thrift smile.

        "James." She cheerfully called.

        He stood up and approached her. He kissed her temple and I looked away. I don't want to see any sweetness around me. Cindy was temporarily silent and then afterwards they were talking animatedly. Then their voices faded. Last I heard was the sound of the door closing. I didn't glance up or something. I just looked at my papers and then I suddenly fell unfocused.

        I cannot concentrate on the papers in front of me. I just left my seat and went to the window. Moments later, I saw them exiting the palace and were walking towards the garden. They were indulged on their conversation that they haven't noticed many things while they were walking.

        Is this the love thing I supposed to have? Well, if that is the case, I shouldn't be in love. The idea of being focused only to one person was disturbing and it may damage my concentration on ruling my kingdom.

        I left the window and went out of my study. The papers I'm working on right now were the finances for the quarter. I went to my room and stayed there until I was called for dinner.

        I ate just a spoonful this night. I wasn't in my appetite to eat. I don't even know what is happening to me. I need to sort my shits out or I'll be doomed tomorrow for the visit in the orphanage.

        I looked at Cindy and James. They were very happy while talking. Why do I keep on comparing our statuses right now? I'm getting pissed with myself. I stood up and slammed my knife and fork on the table Everybody was startled. Even the staffs around us rushed to me and tried checking if I'm fine. I brushed their concerns away and rolled my eyes.