Although I am now living with tumours on my chest. I'm living like normal. I haven't told any of the boys not even Niall. I'm such a bad girlfriend I'm starting my treatment when I get home in two months. But it's highly unlikely I will be starting it...
flash back
I stared down at the white stick with two pink lines on. It's official I have a human inside of me as well as cancer. I placed both hands on my stomach in disbelief. Louis was stood next to me, weird I know, but he was there when I was throwing up every morning, the typical symptoms.
"well, Erm. Congrats?" He said more of a question.
"he's going to hate me" I stated shaking my head still holding my un-showing stomach.
"Fuck off Charlie, he loves you more than anything. Just like the rest of us on this bus and no matter what we will protect the baby" he said hugging me.
"c-could you give me a minute please" I said in between deep breaths, I don't want the stress the baby out at such a young age. He nodded, then smiled and left. I held onto the sink with both hands taking deep breaths. I can do this. I can do it.
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Me and Niall are out walking around the stadium talking about the tour.
"I want to do this forever" he said smiling Down at me.
"So do I" I said agreeing leaning into his shoulder as we walked.
"I wouldn't want to picture what we're doing now any other way" he said kissing the top of my head.
This is it.
Just tell him.
"what about with a little one running round?" I asked looking down at my tummy.
"maybe someday" he said smiling even more. Ok so at least I know he's positive.
"what about if that day is next is some time next March.." I said while I stopped walking. I could tell he was about the respond when it clicked in his head.
"what?" he asked in disbelief looking at all my body signals to see if I was giving off any signs that I was joking.
"I'm - pregnant" I said quietly. There was a moment of silence and I started to panic. Shit he's going to leave me. fuck no. His head frowned together and his eyebrows rose but then the corners of his lips turned up after a minute of thinking.
"arhhhhhh" he shouted picking me up and spinning me around.
"I LOVE YOU GRACE" he shouted putting me down and then kissing me. After a long kiss he dropped down in front of me placing both hands on my belly.
"I love you too little guy" he said then kissing just above my belly button.
"so your not mad?" I asked in disbelief
"fuck off Grace, I could never be mad at you, or you" he said and at the end looked down at our child.
"hey hey no swearing around the baby" I joked before pulling him into a kiss. This was it. A new start. This baby was going to be my reason to live and reason of life. and for the last half an hour all my worries left me as its was just the three off us.
present day
"wow lady with a baby" Harry shouted as we go off the tour bus to enter our hotel. But as he finished his sentence reliever there was a mod of about 40 fans stood recording. Shit.
Harry slowly turned round and sorry was showing in all of his facial features. I looked at Niall, and fuck these dam hormones I found the whole situation hilarious.
"what are you laughing at?" Niall asked me. I just shook my head still laughing which caused him to laugh also. The boys looked at us as if we were insane before pulling us off the bus. They asked some questions while I read and email I had received from the doctor. Telling me that my treatment was ready and as soon as I'm home I should go in.... fuck.
"babe lets go" Niall said pulling my hand as we walked into the hotel
