GIRL ALMIGHTY
sorry the next few chapters are short. but what do you think?
Chapter 4- I want Niall.
3 days. 3 days till my mums 'deadline' and I know that this time she will go. Her cheeks are looking more thin and her skin looks 4 shades paler, her hairs like straw and her nails are blue. Every morning she still demands to wear a spray of her perfume and a silver neckless with a small pendent that me and my 'dad' brought her.
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Me and Greg were sat in the hospital room the same room I have spent hours and hours in.
"Do you want to go for something to eat from the cafe down stairs"
Greg asked from the hard plastic chair next to me.
Since my mums become more ill I've ate less not wanting to leave her side, sure my ribs are starting to show a little and my hip and collar bones stick out more but my struggle isn't half as bad as my mums so I carry on . But soon enough I would have to eat something, I lightly nodded and stood up next to Greg and walked to the cafe side by side leaving my sleeping mother to rest.
"We haven't talked in a while" Greg stated
"There's been nothing to talk about"
"Yes there has."
"What?"
"You and Nia?"
"What about Niall?" I said trying to play it cool like it was no big deal.
Recently Niall and I's friendship is getting stronger and stronger, we've facetimed and skyped at least 3 times a week and he met my mum through FaceTime on my phone screen.
I was about to reply when my mums nurse appeared next to the vending machine with a pale look on her face, we connected eye contact and she slowly nodded her head while I shook mine in big strokes. Greg caught my gaze and looked at the nurse only to nod his head turning to me, with glossed eyes filled with concern, worry and sadness. Within a second I was on the floor crying my heart out. I found myself repeating the words 'no' over and over again.I was gone for 2 minutes ! In the time it took me to get to the bottom floor was the same amount of time it took to kill a life! It's all my fault I shouldn't have left to get food, how selfish of me!
"Why?!" I muffled into his shoulder letting hot tears fall freely down my face.
"Shhhhhhh" Greg tried to calm me rubbing my back in small circles.
"Why today?! Why her?!"
He was cradling me in the middle of the empty canteen floor whispering in my ear and trying to calm me down.
Id tried so hard to prepare myself for this day, I had 3 years to tell myself that I could coupe when the time comes but reality is that I can't cope, I now have no family that I like to call family, I am officially an orphan. I can't cope I can't do this, I have no motherly figure.
Before I even knew what I was saying I sobbed
"I want Niall"
"What?!"
"You heard me"
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The next day I was sat in my small bed room staring at the wall, Since my mums death I've ate nothing because it's my fault, I should have gone then so I'm not going to eat now. I was listening to the heavy rain drops against the window still crying. When the door opened I never turned round it was only Greg checking on me. He hasn't stopped checking on me since he carried me to bed last night. The door closed and I heard light footsteps in my room and the bed sunk down. I slowly turned round showing whoever it was my swollen red eyes..
"Niall?"
"Shhhh go to sleep" he said as his arm draped around my waist so we were spooning on my bed.
His grey sweater and joggers were so soft compared to my black leggings and top that both had holes in. He must hate cuddling me, I'm dressed like a tramp in a house that's falling apart because I can't afford anything. Anxiety getting the best of me I move away from him only to be pulled back seconds later
"I don't mind" was all he whispered in my ear but It somehow made me feel content.
I've only just met this guy in person and I already feel like I've known him 5 years. I feel so safe lying next to him, my troubles were fading for that moment in time and I got my first decent sleep
