Living With My Crush (Completed)

Chapter 04

Chapter 4

Envy

"Goodbye, class. You may go to your next subject."

Nagsi-tayuan naman kami at inayos ang mga gamit namin. Magka-sabay pa rin kami nina Helene at Acantha. At ganoon pa rin, tahimik si Acantha.

Kaya tinanong ko na siya. "Nakaka-baliw 'yan, Acantha. Ano bang problema?" tanong ko.

"Wala..." sagot niya in a cold way. O-kay? May galit ba siya sa akin? Feels like she do.

Habang papunta kami sa next class namin, nakasalubong namin sila Chryseis at Nicca.

"Hi, Enchong!" bati ni Acantha sa harap ni Nicca pero umiwas si Nicca at bumaling ang tingin niya sa akin. Sa halip na pansinin ni Nicca si Acantha, lumapit siya sa akin.

"Hi, besh! Punta na kayo sa next class niyo?" tanong ni Nicca sa akin at nag-smile.

I can see that he still have his man side but he's... covering himself? Oh well, I don't know. I don't have the right to judge persons especially to those na kakakilala mo palang. Kagaya ng ginagawang pag-iwas at pagiging cold ni Acantha sa akin, I don't want to judge her by that. Hahayaan ko lang muna.

Sumagot nalang din ako. "Ah, yeah. Papunta na nga kami..." nag-smile ako kay Nicca at tumingin kay Acantha and... she's looking at me sharply. God. What's wrong with this girl?

"Okay, besh. Gora na kami. Toodles, besh," nakipag-beso sa akin si Nicca at humarap kay Chryseis. "Lets go, Chry," at nag-lakad na sila palayo.

"Whew..." iyon lang ang nasabi ni Helene at nag-lakad na kami. Doon lang namin napag-tanto na wala na si Acantha sa pinag-tayoan niya kanina. Dumiretso na siguro si Acantha sa next room na paglilipatan.

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Acantha

Nagtata-takbo ako patungong school garden. Wala nang tao doon kaya pwede akong umiyak doon. I probable should just cry this out because there is nothing I can do to make him notice me.

Nang makarating ako, agad akong umupo sa ilalim ng puno at nagi-iyak. "Bangin ganoon nalang si Enchong?" Napahikbi ako.

I know you are wondering why I'm acting like this to Lencho.

It's because I love him. Yes, I love him. Even if he's fighting with gender crisis, I love him. But, I just wonder why he's snob at me. He's not noticing my existence. He's acting like I'm just a fucking wind that can be feel but not seen. And it hurts my heart.

And I don't even know he's fighting gender crisis. Seems like he's going on being a gay persona.

I prepared myself up and walk to my class. I shouldn't be this affected around him. I may be too obvious but I won't let him see my drool over him.

Nang makapasok ako sa classroom, agad akong binungad ng aming teacher.

"Why are you late? Are planning to cut but you realize you don't have to because you are worried about your grades? Ms. Aeson?" agad na bungad sakin ni Mr. Vemantro. I searched for a vacant seat first before answering Mr. Vemantro. Then I saw an unoccupied seat beside... beside Eurydice.

Actually, I'm not angry or what on Eurydice. It just hurts my ego that Lencho is talking and having some convey with her while me, just observing and looking at his face. As if an air around him. Hindi na nararamdaman, hindi pa nakikita.

Then I answered Mr. Vemantro. "Uh... yes, Sir. I'm kind-of aware about my grades now that's why pumasok ako sa klase mo," I smiled at him sweetly at lumakad na sa kaisa-isang vacant seat na kasalukuyang nasa tabi ni Eurydice.